All the Nines in my life

Apr 7
Father, feels exhilarated. For the first time, did some running in my weekly Sunday walk. Ran on flat path and walk on sliding path. Feels great. Yea, that's what I to inter-spate running and walking.

I was singing in the park. There were tots of P but somehow it doesn't affect my joy.

Now back home, mind is still working overtime on defense mechanism. Father, why so many Nines in my life. The first Nine of Spades was S, my staff. Good worker but his peers can't stand him. Now P ruling card is Nine of Spades, the effect more pronounced. Anyway, no more dilemma. The bigger pix is to lead the team, whereas she will just demoralised and drive people away. So, I will take charge.

Father, here I used to get so affected by others and here P is totally not bothered.

Nine of Clubs - J who in the end drop off as her mind not in the right place. Extreme person.
Nine of Hearts - N who rubs everyone off wrongly.
Nine of Diamonds - M and Ck whose approach in terms of their valuation differs from others. Their values more important than the people around them.
Nine of Spades - S and P, both great worker but totally dislikes by their peers. Work comes first.

All the Nines are good in their skill sets but extreme and disliked by their peers. They seem unaware And yet they are totally not bothered eventhough receiving loads of negative feedback.

Father, let me learn from them. Not to be bothered about what others think of me.

Something happens. Suddenly don't feel like watching my favourite cooking show. Not sure if this is because I don't want to see temptation. A tot came, life is more than food. And my mantra has always been I live to eat.