Yea..finally admitting I am a hidden pessimist

Apr 25 aft
Father, I m feeling bit off. I know I m fine. Finally I recognised I m a feeler.

Sun in Cancer
U tend to collect the residue of past experience and hold on to it, allowing it to colour present activities and lead u to instinctual action. Rather than allowing urself to be driven by ur changing moods, u benefit from shedding the light of conscious reason on ur habitual patterns and focus on ur true goals.

Soul
Yea. Focus on happy me. I guess I was bit off. Not sure why. Can be anything. Tot of M maybe avoiding me because she knows what I think of her optimism. Tot of Y and wonder what she is telling Mi. Hope she is fine as I open her pix.
Good thing, Am asked if the IK session on Monday is a routine. I said nope unless for more participants. Am said he wants it. I wonder what R and J said about it.

Spiritual Astrology
Nothing happens by accident. Because we have the power to attract experiences, we also have the power to change our responses. The key is in accepting personal responsibility, which leads directly to personal empowerment.

Soul
Yea. I m real pessimist. Anything that happens, I tend to view negatively.

Spiritual Astrology
If u give the responsibility of ur happiness to others, u subjugate urself to the ups and downs of the material world. When u accept sole responsibility for actualising the energies in ur birth chart, u gain the power to navigate. Then ur life is lived inside out, rather than just being buffeted around by external shifts in ur environment.
Instead of playing catch up, u r playing ur own game! U still may be relating with the same people, but by becoming more conscious and changing the way u interacting with them (and with urself) u gain the empowerment of recognising that through self direction, u have far more control over producing results u would like in ur world than u had realised. By changing ur presentation, u gain more power over ur destiny.

Soul
Yea, I now have the complete tools. My practices helps me to be grounded. Natal chart helps to identify my triggers. 7thunders helps me to scope out the events. Osho helps me to read my inner path. Amen.