Sadhguru - Pleasure is only important if you are half alive

Apr 20
Today did Surya kriya cos couldn't go to the pool.
This time I did with awareness of my feet position. Noticed that my left feet is generally out but right feet is ok. I can push my right feet down but not my left feet.
Did breathing, was ok
Shakti was ok with good Kapala Bhakti
I was singing away on the butterfly postures in Shambavi. Towards the end, I begin to dance and then I sang. The joy is in me.
Went for the group meet and it was unofficially announced that I m the lead and of my change of name. They teased me a bit.
My new name is Joy.
Father, just now when my sister shared about her experiences, I was fine. I realised now that's what I need to do. Share so I can reaffirmed my valuation.
That's what Eight of Diamonds people are meant to teach me.

Sadhguru dvd: With the One Who Knows
Question: Why am I here with u?
U r here because there is light. U r like a moth, attracted to light.
If u cannot walk in or walk out by choice, u r in prison.
U close the door, because of insecurity. Such insurance is good for somebody who wish to die. But it is not a safety.
In search of security, self destructive things can happen to oneself.
A door is only a door if it can be shut or open. If it is always closed, then it is not a door.

I am always saying "I knows" repeatedly, whether the situation is conducive or not.  That's sound hedonistic. It is. If there is no thirst in ur heart, that's a horrible thing when there is somebody keeps on saying he Knows.
But if there is a thirst in ur heart, then when u hear someone clearly saying, "he knows" is the greatest benediction. If there is thirst in the heart....
Water is only valuable when u r thirsty. If u r thirsty, alas a glass of water is found. Otherwise water doesn't mean anything.

Soul
When I watch this, I recalled the first time I watched his video during IE, he said there is a way, our energy. And I knew he gave me the answer I was searching for.
I recalled I cried non stop cos I was grateful that alas an answer came after so many years of searching and when I nearly given up hope in my Self mastery journey.
Father, Z is not receptive to Sadhguru. Does that mean he is not thirsty?

(Suddenly, I remembered M said about his question in a Sathsang. I have just msg him and confirmed that the sathsang he attended in Aug 2009. I wish M is here..)


Sadhguru
Question: what is the rship between a Guru and disciple?

A friend is someone who sustain ur ego, who comfort u.
So a Guru is not ur friend.

Parents arise out of compulsion, during hormonal hijacks. Parents are generally people who do everything they can't do thru their children. So Guru is not parent.

Am I am authoritarian? Yes, I am definitely that. But not the Hitler type.
When it comes to fundamental life, whatever I say, will happen. I will not listen to anyone, even God. I am an absolute authoritarian. I will dismiss everyone who disagree with me, even Buddha himself. That's how I am.

Death and pleasure is connected. Life and pleasure is not connected.
If u said u go to ashram. People will think you must not be alive. Thats the general perception.

If u r partially alive, is a terrible torture. This is the torture that a large segment of humanity is going through right now.  Because they are half alive. Only one part of them has become alive. Only their physicality and mentality has become alive. The rest of it has yet to become alive.

Half alive people will suffer everything. They will suffer ignorance; they will suffer education; they will suffer poverty; they will suffer affluence; they will suffer being alone; they will suffer being in a relationship; if they are not married, they suffer. If they are married, they also suffer. If they don't have children, they suffer that. Children not there also they suffer.

Just show me one thing that human are not suffering from right now. Just show me one aspect of life that human beings are not suffering right now. They are suffering just about anything. Not just life, they are even suffering death before it happens.
That which is and that which is not; everything human suffers.

U r not suffering loneliness; u r not suffering company; u r not suffering money; u r not suffering poverty. What u r suffering is that u r half alive.

U r desperately trying to make yourself fully alive thru money, thru drinks, thru sex, thru going on a track, coming to ashram. In so many ways, u r somehow trying to make urself fully alive but it has yet to happen fully. Here and there u feel a burst of aliveness. But yet again it stops.

So when people are constantly half alive, pleasure becomes an important part of ur life. Very important part of ur life. Why? Because, without pleasure u cannot access ur aliveness.  Pleasure becomes paramount in ur life when u r only half alive. When physicality is all u know, pleasure becomes an immense importance in ur life.

If u become fully alive, u will become so blissful, joyful, ecstatic without reason, burst of ecstasy within u without any reason, it is almost embarrassing. Now the tot of pleasure just evaporate. Looking for a drink, looking for some kinds of pleasurable thing just evaporate itself out of ur mind. Because u r fully alive.
When u r fully alive, pleasure disappear.
When u r half dead, pleasure is an important thing. When half of u is buried in a grave. To have pleasure becomes extremely important.
Graves have their own problems too. I saw the pyramids and saw that.

Whatever ur problem. Go all the way out to get it. U will find out within 24 hours that it is not the answer. Infact every pleasure you go for for is not the answer.

Life is just an explosion of intelligence. What u called as the Source of Creation, the Creator is ultimate intelligence.
That's the only thing u can trust right now. That will function only if u go all the way. If u go half heartedly, it will give u a false sense of comforts and solace. U can carry on with this stupid thing for the whole lifetime; infact for many lifetimes. U know it doesn't work but its not intense enough; thats why you still continue.

So give urself absolutely to whatever nonsense u r doing, very soon, within a day, u will know it doesn't work. If u realise it doesn't work, I believe u will shift. Something doesn't work and u r sure it doesn't work and u will shift.

Fulfilment, completeness is not going to happen by getting this or getting that.
It will only happen when this piece of life is alive to its core. That the very source of creation in this human, u have divine.
Only when u have touch the divinity in u, then u will find everything is fine. Now u can play life like a football game. U r on, when its on and when u want to switch it, it's off. Then nothing is a problem.