Losing faith in myself..

Apr 9 eve
Father, did a walk cum run this evening. Sweat out and feels great. Just did Shoonya in the car.

Uranus in Virgo
Ur ability - to perceive innovative way of cleaning up the social environment on both physical and mental levels.

Disruption occurs: when new ways of serving society are misunderstood and taken too literally.

Soul
Mmm, not sure what's this yet.


Just back from the meet with M and P. It was quite humbling. P said that others won't follow my lead cos I don't do ground work. And I m trying to be grandiose.

Just had a chat with L and she said she doesn't have the feeling of grandiosity. She think P react cos I bypass her.
We had a good chat. L said P is fighting so hard to get us to like her as a leader but none of us do. She becomes aggressive because of exhaustion from overwork.
So the Fighting card on her is true. She fights so hard against others but actually she wants to be liked.
So I don't eliminate her. That's my lunar in Scorpio. Let me Change. Let me use my power to bout instead of to destruct.
But need to weaken her power. Father, C and I put her up there. And she does all the work but yet is C and I that gets the attention as the leads.
Let me remember the Fighting card.

Father, amen. No wonder today Four of Heart.