U can only master yourself, not others

Apr 6 eve 1
Father, both hands finger tips are feeling numb.
Am I suppressing any feelings?
Not sure. Other than feeling resigned to the leadership in Isha.
Tomorrow is Sathsang. I have accepted my Sathsang guide role.
Just got all the approvals done. Now the set up only. I think can be done.

Osho
When happiness is our intrinsic nature, then it is called bliss.
When bliss is only a happening, it is called happiness

Whatsoever has a reason for its existence can be taken away, because the reason itself can be taken away. Happiness will not last long whenever there is a reason for it. Happiness which is dependent on outside is momentary.

If there is bliss, and no reason for it, this means that it is not coming from the outside, it is coming from within. If there is a bliss, but there is a reason for it, this means that it is coming from without. That is why we depend on outside - we depend on others. Anybody can take our happiness away, anybody can take it away any moment. And how can u be the master of that which comes from the outside. 

Soul
Yea, my validation is from outside. That's the reason why I undertake the inner journey cos I believed we are meant to be happy.
Why do I still need validation from external when I m joyful within. 


Osho
Upanishads
The joyful consciousness,
the oceanic bliss without limit,
that which is the essential nature of all joy .,,

When bliss starts flowing from within, when it becomes this Radha, then u have found that friend who is never lost, who cannot be lost.

When every cause of happiness has been left behind and when everything has gone but still a happiness remains, that happiness it's the nature of Brahman. This has been called bliss.