Neptune in Scorpio..is it me??

Apr 11
Father. Woke up 4.30 am, feel ok. Tot of Sadhguru's devotion. Father, I finally breakthrough. I saw beyond his make belief arrogance and saw his devotion to us.

Neptune in Scorpio
My dilemma; dealing with establishing ur value with other people.
It is the choice between idealistically expecting the automatic support of other people's resources or responsibly defining material values with them.

Soul
That's true. When I first decide to come back, I was dumbfounded when I saw that there is no volunteers. Then I become undecided and let P take the lead.
Now I m back and I will build it up.
Point noted from P, leader has to be seen. I agreed and a true leader is able to create an ambiance of volunteering. I know I can do that.

Just realised P has to give feedback and inputs. She said she can't stand it if she doesn't tell. Guess for her, intention is to make the task better but she forget about the big picture. To focus on strength instead of weakness. Since she puts so much judgement on others, I wonder does she judge herself? Maybe not, cos she disregard feedback. Or perhaps we are not assertive with our feedbacks. Both C and I are sensitive souls. We are easily hurt and try not to hurt others. So we hold on our feedbacks and instead judge ourselves mercilessly. Yea, P is cosmic lesson to both of us.
Both C and I are loveable, and P is not. We are her lesson. She knows she can't compete at our levels, so she overcompensated by trying to be the Gospel lady.


Neptune in Scorpio
6th house
Unconscious expression.
Ur tendency is to sacrifice on the altar of duty. If u seek to measure urself up to some perfected ideal in ur work, u will fail to be recognised as the willing servant that u aim to be

Striving to be acknowledged as a self sacrificing, spiritual person can lead to severe health conditions, tensions with coworkers and a tremendous sense of frustration and paranoia in the job.

Soul
At the moment, I can't see that in me at Isha. And this sounds like P. And this affirms to what I said about her being the Gospel lady.

But I was true worker in my career. Worrying and judging myself on the ups and down if business, eventhough I don't have a say.

Not sure on this either cos Neptune in Scorpio is realising the higher levels of shared materials ownership on a planetary level.

Neptune in Scorpio
Conscious expression
The key is letting go of ideals of how u should look as the worker. Then u can focus on serving others rather than ur image.
U r empowered to serve others in a positive way by releasing a need for reflected perfection. In this process, u free urself to experience joy and union with coworkers in getting the job done together.

Happiness results when u relax and trust that the universe is supporting u in ur work. This process leads to experiencing the ecstasy of consciously participating in being of service in ur work place.

Soul
Again I tot great advice for P.

Me. I just do what I like. But I was feeling not confident on my website offering. Not sure if  I can help others by my sharing. Not sure if I be viewed as too much.

Well, I m more relaxed now. Both S and V also said the homepage looks welcoming. Amen.