My food karma evaporated

Apr 20 eve

Sadhguru
If u become fully alive, u will become so blissful, joyful, ecstatic without reason, burst of ecstasy within u without any reason, it is almost embarrassing. Now the tot of pleasure just evaporate. Looking for a drink, looking for some kinds of pleasurable thing just evaporate itself out of ur mind. Because u r fully alive.
When u r fully alive, pleasure disappear.

Soul
That's happening. I m feeling happy. Just contented. Even when the issue of validation arise, I was aware and didn't get to caught up with it.
I m just happy. When I meditate, so blissful.

Today had to go to eat a certain noodle that requires meat for it to taste good. I tried to avoid going but I couldn't. I went but I order something else for lunch.
During dinner, another test, I had to go eat a rice dish that has chicken in it. Without the chicken, only rice. I tried to change the venue but my sister already ordered. So I went and just eat the food without chicken. Just eat the rice and I was fine. Absolutely no drama.

My life used to be about good food. I used to live to eat. Food is my number one pleasure.

Father, tonight tells me that I m serious about not eating chicken and meat.

North node in Taurus
Establishing self worth
When they look to others to acknowledge that they have power, they won't feel like they have any. When they realise that their power is within them, they have a lot. Part of claiming their power involves understanding their own values.
They don't have to work to become valuable; their value is inherent - who they are is a gift they bring to the world.
Their own sense of self worth is the one thing that they can hang on  to amid the constant shift of public opinion. When this folks let others determine their worth, they are on roller coaster ride.


Strengthening my values
The most important goal for Taurus north node is to pledge themselves to their own values  and build a sense of self-worth.
They are learning that they can't establish self worth by going along with others' values to gain validation nor can they attain self worth through resisting others values. Either way, they lose.
They win when they discover what is truly important and precious to them: their own values. Self worth will come as a by product of living according to those values.

They recognise the truth of this but may still feel lost when it comes to knowing what their values are. And that's fine. They have a clean slate - a unique opportunity to get in touch with what is in the deepest level of their souls.
The idea is to consciously discover what is important to them, what values gives them a sense of being grounded, confident and able to face the world without anxiety. They need to ask themselves: "What principles can I live by that will make me feel good about myself, give me a sense of my own self worth and give me a solid path to follow?"
To further discriminate. Is my motive self validation or to gain the validation of others.

Soul
I asked how to overcome validation issue. Answer came. This also gives clarity on my Ruling Card of Ace of Diamonds and my Destiny Card of Queen of Diamonds.

I am worthy inside me. I just need to validate my own values and the result will be self worth.