Further confirmation that I got very high expectation of myself - Pluto in Virgo

Apr 18 aft
As I was discussing with Ah, I suddenly realised that I sought validation because I am not validating myself.
I shared with her that on average there is 60 page views a day. She said that is a lot for a site that is not even advertised. That's show there are people out there that is keen to read my sharing.
I told her I tot 1000 page view a day would be when I think it has done well.
Ah said that I seems to have an expectation level issue. I got very high expectation level on myself.

Coincidentally I came to the same conclusion a few days ago; I set myself up for disappointment cos I had too high an expectation. If I lower down my expectation realistically, then there be no disappointment.
Father, this is so reminiscent of my Pluto in Virgo - perfectionist. This is hidden so deep that I didn't even realised.
When I shared with her the web layout, she said it is very good and its so me. She always felt energised and good after she sees me.



A tot occurred to me...I didn't show my true self.

I only show to the world, the social part of me, the one that loves food and recently now the one that meditate.

I can't show the world the one that's invest her whole time in self development and sharing of her experiences. I hide my spiritual aspect, which is the larger part of me.

Hiding means not giving recognition to myself, not validating myself. No wonder I then project it out that's others don't validate me. That I need validation from others. The truth is I only need to validate myself.