Meat and poultry really is not good for our body

Apr 2
Woke up at 3.50 am as it was hot. Switch on aircond and slept back. Surprisingly body is good to wake up at 4.30 am.
For the first time, did one cycle of Surya Kriya and followed by hata asanas. I was able to bend deeper in all the asanas. Also I learned to breathe along the way at every postures.

Father, not eating red meat and poultry really has its effects. My weight has not find down but I felt less bloated. Pants not as tight. Skin complexion also improved.

Father, if what Sadhguru says about we use our food to create ourself, then the positive symptoms seems reasonable.
I used to say that the prices  for going vegetarian is not worth it. But I think the price to give up meat may be worth it. I m now doing it, not so much for the cholesterol issue but I see the changes to my body and I liked it. There is also no change to my life style as I still eat dishes with meat but I take the gravy and its side such as vege or potato. For me, it's just the taste.

Today practices, tots of Z comes in. This time I look at it and waive it off as memories, its not real, just like a dream. I used to say we don't get ourselves hooked, as if the mind is out to get us. Now I can see that if we are not conscious, we follow the tots cos we think is real. Now I can see its not the mind, its us. Mind is just a group of clouds picking up memories, that's what it do.
The key to ignore is to be conscious ourselves.

Today, there were no singing but I sat in cross leg position for a long period. Somehow my body wants to sit up straight. Head and lower body taking turns to shake. My body feels light.  Suddenly i feel Joy and laughter bubbled up from within. Amen.

Father, the trees and grass are looking so lovely. They are just here. That's how I feel. Just here.

1. The issue
Clinging to the past
Past is that which is no longer before you. Future is that which is not yet before you. And present is that which is before u and is slipping out of your sight.
Clinging will simply create misery. You will have to let go.

Soul
So apt. When I got this card yday, I tot why? I m over Z. Little did I realised that I saw Z card and start to have mental drama.
The key is to be conscious. That's my motto. Being conscious. I first enter my inner journey because I won't let my unconscious rules me. Now that I have uncovered my unconsciousness, its time to stay conscious.
Letting go is my result for this year Nine of Diamonds. Let me have faith that God will lead me to whom I need to be.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Ordinariness
In whatsoever situation, u become one, a peace, a happiness, a bliss surrounds u,  arises in u.
The special gift u have to offer now is presented best by just taking things easily and simply, one step at a time.

Soul
That's how I feel now. Just feeling contented. One step at a time. I want to savour this experience of myself.

3. External influence of which u r aware
Mind
With this cloud, u cannot know reality; u cannot attain to spiritual perception. This cloud has to be dropped. And it is just with your decision to drop that it will disappear. U r clinging to it - the cloud is not interested in u.

Soul
Exactly. Stay conscious and don't follow.

4.  What is needed for resolution?
Celebration
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy.
Ur cleverness is ur disease. Don't be too wise. Always remember to stop; don't go to the extreme. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good, and the right combination makes u a Buddha.

True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within, spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes even tears of gratitude.

Soul
I have experienced this. And continuing to do so. Amen.


5. The resolution
Adventure
Truth is radical, personal realisation. U have to come to it. The very search for personal knowing will help u to grow. Danger be there, sacrifice will be there and there is no map to follow, no guide. Insecurity is the only way to grow.
Whenever we move into the new and unknown with the trusting spirit of a child, innocent and open and vulnerable, even the smallest things in life can become greatest adventure.

Soul
Yes. But I do have guides sent by Father. I m coming home to my Self.
I am Joy and I want the world to know me.
Finalising the website by this week.