Facing my fear consciously - 2

Apr 27 eve 1
Father, look like my next 52 days from 13 May to 3 July won't be easy either. Learning to accept and face my Saturn in Aries and Pluto in Virgo.

Just now I saw that yesterday page view was 108. The average page view is 60 per day. I now know that it is high as I don't even publish it.

I have to admit, I felt bit of fear.  Not sure if I m ready to face my inner self being exposed. As I was googling for Vijii information, I can see my sufferingisblessing blogspot flashes out everywhere. This means my blog is truly out in the open. No wonder, no advert also so many page views.
And I think North Node in Taurus got many 'hits' too.

Just got to stay chill. I know that's my path. Reading Deb Shapiro's and also Jan Spiller, I can see that both of them also disclosed their inner issue. It is the point of personal sharing.


Be the Change
Ed Shapiro - inviting fear in
Remember the time u have met fear and moved through it, so many times when fear arose but u kept going? Fear may close the heart, but fearlessness comes out of heartfulness, out of releasing resistance. Fear will stop us from facing our demons and participating fully in life, but fearlessness will give us the courage to jump off the crane into the unknown.

In other words, being fearless does not mean we have to stop or deny the fear; fearlessness is not a state of being without fear. Rather, it is the experience of fully feeling the fear, naming it, getting to know it, taking it by the hand, and even making friends with it.

Soul
Exactly my feelings this morning. I know I was feeling fearful. But I told myself, just swim with the fear. For the first time I swim the full way. And despite my fear, I keep on swimming breast stroke instead of free style.
And I admit breast stroke is more relaxing than free style.
That's a first too.

Father, my readings always coincide with my experiences. Thank U for always being with me. I may be alone in the outer world but in the inner world, U r always with me. That I know for sure.
Even just now I was feeling fearful on leadership of Isha and u gave me the Osho's Aloneness card to motivate me. Amen.
I am crying when I wrote this. What a day! 

Be the Change
Bruce Springsteen
There is a world of love and there is a world of fear and its standing right in front of you.

John Milton
When the world of love comes rushing in, a world of fear comes with it. To open yourself up to one thing, u got to embrace the other as well.

Soul
Years ago I realised that when I expressed my hidden sadness, my happiness become more and I become Joy.
Now the same concept applies to fear and fearlessness.
I was trying to suppress my fear. But today in the pool, I can't do it. As I suppressed my fear, my body closed up and I can't swim properly. Only when I feel my fear, and remind myself I m safe, my body opens up to swim properly.

Be the Change - Ed and Deb Shapiro
Letting fear in and making friends with it does not necessarily comes easily; fear is a powerful feeling that demands understanding and patience.
Fear comes - we breathe and let go
Fear comes - we see how the mind needs reassurance and tenderness.
Fear comes - we replace it with love.
When we do this, we are inviting the fearful and anxious part of ourselves to get to know each other, even to sit down for tea together.

Soul
Thank you for this. Especially when I am facing my Pluto in Virgo.

Pluto in ur path
It shows where u have the opportunity to walk the path of terror. It is the dark night of the soul -  the test of worthiness to play a larger role in life than the one dictated by ur past.

Soul
It is my most fearful lesson in my life. I felt like I had to go thru personal death before I can pass this lesson.
But I know that's my destiny. Amen.
Father, I m not alone. U r with me. Amen.