Sadhguru's path is Devotion to us

Apr 10 eve 1
A call for Kailash
Sadhguru - devotion to us.

Just did my Shoonya. I cried with thankfulness for breaking thru my karma on validation from friends.
Then suddenly my cries turn into longing. I suddenly cried that I want to go to Kailash. I want to go back. I want to be healthy and go back.
I tot this was a fluke. Then moments later the same call for Kailash. I cried loudly.

I had a tot that my change of name signify a new me. The old me has total resistance on Kailash. From the money, food,  hard journey, health, not wanting to go near Sadhguru, too I don't need Kailash.

A tot came, I become a brahmachari, but a worldly one. I stayed on the world. The world is my ashram.

I am not sure of this call. But I want to watch the DVD Mountain tonight. Amen.

Sadhguru.
If u have big desires, u must also build big capability.


(Apr 12 - Soul - yea, if I want to lead the public, I must first led the local Isha)

Sadhguru on "why he created the Ashram, Dhynalinga..)
The soil must be right for anything to happen. Life happens because of ambience.
Eg, without ur mother care, ur growth may be impaired.
For one to flower spiritually, the lap of grace is important. It will be much easier in the right ambience.
Without grace of ambience, u have to be very 'hard' on urself in growth. People who choose hard way because they are often seeker without the lap of grace. They make themselves like stone. So body break first. But the Ego becomes very strong with pride and hardness. Even if God is here, he can't bow down. He can't allow anyone to overwhelm him. I know, cos I walked it for 2 lifetimes..I was so hard.


To be in the lap of grace in Ashram
It take so much to realise that u actually do not know what a blade of grass is. So, don't talk about knowing existence. When u realised the magnitude of ur ignorance, then u r willing to crawl.

When u think u know, ur spine becomes steel rod. U cannot bend. Steel is not strong and is only good for menial things. But if u want higher things, steel is not strong.
To be in the lap of grace, it is a fortune. A distinct difference will happen in u.

With the right Ambience - you just relax, melt and merge with Grace.

Every emotion that u go thru in ur lives, it is ur own making. If u can go thru this consciously, u definitely choose the sweetest way to be.
People who think they r intelligent tries to stay away from devotion. Devotion simply means in ur life, when u r aware there is something larger than ur life functioning around u.

When u r overwhelmed, if u r sensitive enough, u r naturally a devotee. U may not be in temple or etc, u may not be dressed as one. Maybe u never uttered God's name. If u r aware something far bigger than u is functioning right now, u r naturally devoted.
When u think u r everything, u can't be a devotee
If this is a living reality of knowing something larger than you then you are always a devotee.

Sadhguru - I too am a devotee. I don't like to say this as everyone see me as arrogant. It takes a lot for me to look arrogant.
They will ask what kind of devotee I am. They asked if it is Shiva. No, Shiva is just my partner.
I am a Devotee to u. Ur well being is the most important to me.

There are many people in the Ashram who is with me for more than 20 years ago. Their lives is just on preparing the right ambience for others. They are on a path of devotion. They need not go to temple or pray, but they are true devotee because they hold others higher than themselves.
When u hold someone's well being beyond ur own. It's devotion. U can keep urself aside and let the larger existence happens to u.
This is the simplest way. The sweetest way is thru devotion. Devotion is a practice.
U walk like a devotee, not as a pretense but as a reality.

U do not think too much of urself. Whatever u may think of life may not be true. Look as every nature as more intelligent than u. Look at them for what they are. Do u know how much life the blade of grass knows more than u. Nature knows much more than u on life. Just walk in a sense of wonder and devotion. This open the door of life.
Even the soil knows more than u. Ur brain cannot do what the soil is doing. So u walk gently.

I have been thru hard sadhana for 2 lifetimes. I don't want anyone to go thru what I went thru. That's why I now devoted to give u the easier way, the sweetest way...to give you the right ambience to grow. And Devotion is the sweetest way.

Soul
Father, I cried so much
All these while I too tot Sadhguru is arrogant like a peacock. He is truly devoted to us. Now I finally see his compassion.
Now I know why Isha is run by volunteers...it is because Isha is the path of devotion. The volunteers creating the ambience so that others can grow.

I resisted leadership in Isha coz I tot the price to pay is not worth it. I was thinking of myself
The other day when I was giving out Isha kriya flyer on my own. I wished more people can learn Isha, go thru the easier way.

Now I understand why the leadership role keep on coming back to me. Sadhguru wanted me to put myself aside for the well being of others, to bring me on a path of devotion.

Father, my lesson is Nine of Heart..Universal love and volunteering is the path for me. It has taken me a few years, but I am finally ready to take the plunge. I am new, I am Joy.

I know I generare ambience of comfort with people, of feeling good to grow. I m a type of leader that creates the right ambience of growth

Father, thanks for guiding me to this DVD. I now remember watching it a month ago. It didn't hit me and infact I stopped half way. Now I watch it with receptivity and cried loads. Thanks to Sadhguru for his compassion

Father, that's also the purpose I m having the website and blog. By sharing my journey, I hope to make others journey easier. I found the tools to share. Amen.
All these comes after I have officially change my name to Joy. Amen.