Learn to appreciate myself..have faith in myself

Apr 8 aft

Three of hearts
Indecision in affection that can manifest in different ways.
It can also be a card of self expression and its presence indicates that we are talking more, expressing our feelings and meeting new people.

Mmm, father, I have decided to be professional with P. From now onwards she is just a colleague and we do work together. I have been hurt too many times. She is a double edge sword and with my emotional sensitivity, I cannot handle her. Best to stay away. A tot came, my Sun is Cancer, a crab with a shell. I will develop one.

North Node in Taurus
Their feeling of inadequacy only arise when they begin to judge themselves and compared themselves with others.
These folks carry a lot of anger. Their anger is really based on fear; fear of not being respected, not being liked, not being treated like a human being.
They often become frustrated and feel robbed of self-worth when they do not get the validation they think they deserve from others. All their fears centred around the issue of; "How am I going to be acknowledged or recognised?" 
They feel afraid and angry because they are giving and they are not getting back what they need.
But this can never be satisfied externally. They can never get enough validation from others - no matter how much wealth, prestige and power they have - to feel good about themselves on a deep level.
The resolution to their anger involves beginning to live in ways that are self validating, in accord to their own value.
When they stop looking at others to provide their sense of self worth and start looking inside themselves, suddenly their anger becomes productive energy.

Soul
Please bring the light.

North node in Taurus
They need to get in touch with what they appreciate about themselves. Appreciate themselves for being themselves rather than for meeting someone else needs.

They need to establish ways of feeding themselves energy so that they become self contained. They can then interact with others because they want to, rather than neediness.
The idea is to engage in activities that nurture and help them feel good about themselves, regardless of the input of others. When they do this, they are on track.