Signing off with new name, Joy

Mar 31 eve 1
Today I start to sign off as Joy, my new name.

Sadhguru
Shiva is both life and death.
Life and death is not two separate things.
To truly live is to embrace death.
For the ignorant, death comes. For the one who is aware, death is.
Moment of danger when life and death is together at same time and if u r aware, u be enlightened.
It takes attention to see life as it is. There is no yes or no. There is just yes and yes.
Love does not need an opposite. Sexuality need an opposite.
If ur energy rise to vibushukti, u be 'stupidly' devotional. U experience more pleasantness than others. There is no plus or minus. There is just always one.
If ur union is in the level of Akna, suddenly intellectual type looks stupid to him. An unbeatable logic.

Soul
Just feel contented watching Sadhguru DVD.
Not so sure of the msg. When I choose the DVD, title was alchemy of ecstasy. So, not sure why the topic is on Shiva.

First time I finally upload a picture of mine into Facebook. This is truly new Life as Joy. Amen.

Father, me who survives on validation from others, who seek my worth from others valuation of me. And my destiny is to put myself, my whole self to be shared. God sure cos a funny sense of humour.

Father, now I tot of Z, he seems like a past, a memory. Amen.

Soul
Suddenly I tot. I need not take afternoon nap during off days. Taking the nap makes me feel lethargic. I can use the time to do Surka kriya instead to activate my energy. I noticed my plough back is getting better as I m able to nearly rest my forehead to my knees.
It is 10 am and I m still alert, not sleepy at all.

Osho
If u enter into urself, whatsoever u will come to know, u cannot be that. Because u r always the knower. So, it's means that whatsoever you know, u r standing behind that knowledge otherwise u would not know it. Whatsoever can be known, u cannot be that.
The basic principle, the foundational, the seed mantra of yoga sadhana, meditation practices, is: you cannot be that which u know.

A duality is a perquisite for knowing, a gap is necessary in order to know. Knowing occurs because of the gap, otherwise there is no knowing.

Example. When you look at ur reflection in the mirror, u have to keep a distance. If u come very close and put ur head on the mirror, it be difficult to see ur reflection. The more u reduce the gap, the more difficult it is for u to see anything. If there is no gap between u and the mirror, u won't be able to see anything. A certain distance is necessary for knowing or seeing.

Soul
Before meditation, I can at times opt not to take my mind seriously as I know it is never ending shit.
After the practices, at times I m able to opt not to listen to my mind.
During Samyama, I have learned to be silent and open eyes and to listen to my mind.
Of late, I can hear that the chatter in my mind has receded and at times it is in silence mode. Does this means  there is already a gap between me and my mind.
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Osho
Ecstasy at its root means to stand out. Ecstasy means to be apart from. Whatever way u try, there is no way for u to be within the experience; u are always apart from that which can be experienced. Wherever u r, u "stand out".
Ecstasy means the witnessing self. This is a one situational definition of the soul.

Soul
A coincidence. I was wondering about the DVD title of ecstasy and here the answer came.

Osho
Upanishads
Just as a thread passes through each bead of necklace, the soul threads each cell of the body
In order that it may become aware of its true nature from amongst the different characteristics.
This one is called antaryami, the knower of all thoughts and feelings.

Begin the journey from the knower of all tots and feelings, make witnessing the key of ur spiritual endeavour, and that which is the indestructible will be the attainment.

Soul
I had experience silence in the mind for 3 days and then chatter crept back. I can hear them. I tot I lost it. I was wondering what happen.
Now I know it's a beginning. Answer received. Amen.