Byron Katie - The world is an effect of mind

Apr 28 eve
Father, my mind was working overtime on the email from teacher. And today I avoided checking my mails cos I don't want to be sad.
Anyway, towards evening I resolved to face my fear. The teacher and N is part of the lessons. If I can face these 2, how can I face international feedback.
There is no other reprimanding email.
I did my calling list. So far called 8 and all are high retention.

Father, thank U for being with me.

Be the Change
Byron Katie
The whole world is an effect of mind. Inside and outside always match: when u r frightened, the world seems dangerous; when u love what is, everything in the world becomes the beloved.

Soul
So true.
Validation is not love. It's my old childhood memories being played.
Father, let me faced the fear.
Let me remember beyond fear is fearlessness. Just like beyond sad is happiness.
I am seen to be fearless; but in reality I m fearful.

Mmm, suddenly a positive tot came. Teacher reprimand me cos she faces the same issue. She just don't want me to make the same mistake. It may not be just to pacify N. Mmm, an alternative tot about negative feedback.

Just like I give P feedback because I want her to 'grow', the same for teacher with me. Guess I m not used to be at receiving end.

Be the Change
The dark night
Entering into the dark places can occur when we are thrown into what is known as the dark night of the soul, a time of torment and loss of connectedness.
Such a time is expressed in all the mystical traditions as an integral part of the spiritual path, an experience of inner confusion and emotional turmoil that leads to a deeper awakening and opening. There is a great purification and healing that takes place when we allow ourselves to surrender to such a dark time.

The great gift meditation gives us is the ability to watch, to be aware, without becoming completely lost.

Joseph Goldstein
Through meditation, we can deal with deep-rooted issues, such as anger or fear, in an extremely powerful and pragmatic way. There is a world of difference between being lost in these deeply conditioned patterns and not identifying with them. Fear arises, anger arises, hatred or greed or whatever it is, normally we become lost in that energy, we get carried away and then act it out. This is the cause of so much pain in the world. Meditation is the middle ground between repression and expression, where awareness is open to the emotion, to the feeling; it is complete honesty with no suppression. 

Ed Shapiro
Meditation also takes us beyond ourselves and allows us to see a bigger picture, of which we are just a part.
No longer is our story is the most important issue, nor suffering something that only we know.

Soul
Yea. Me now going into Pluto in Virgo.
Yea, at least I was not suck into turmoil emotionally. My mind was in turmoil but not my emotion.
I was fine, not so disturbed. Mmm, no wonder I now can have alternative tots and tot of teacher's good intention.