Monday, April 8, 2013

My lesson with Nines - to learn to disregard other opinions of myself

Apr 7 eve 1
Father, my tots were on P. I tot she was carrying some heavy things for Sathsang. Turns out only a few pieces of Notices. Two way of looking at it. She wants to back out and can't even carry the simple thing or she wanted other volunteers to experience it. If it was the latter, why has to pass to me first.
Father, many tots of her. Guess the old event that she boycott me has never died. I keep on saying this word, double edged sword and I regret defending her, taking her into my trust. Father, yea. That's my Lunar in Scorpio.

Help me to see beyond. Perhaps I m edgy cos she said I m not Isha and I need others input. Guess that trigger my fear of acceptance into Isha. It took me a long while but finally when I m able to accept I don't fit the mould but I fit the spirit.
Why didn't I see it before? Guess that the Neptune effect.
Father, its been awhile since I was disturbed by anyone, apart from Z.

Nine of Spades
Spiritual Cosmic lesson to Queen of Diamonds
The lesson is of a role I must play if I m to follow my destiny and achieved my highest potential.
If it is no. 1 connection, this person is playing an instrumental role in helping me find my path to power.
Not an easy connection. But taken with proper attitude, it could provide the catalyst for finding your life work on a more universal level. 

Soul
I need to learn from her how to disregard others persistently and just do what I set out to do - my website.
Just like with Nine of Diamonds, I was to emulate their ability to persistently asked for what they want.

Father, need to learn from Nines...totally disregard for others..don't need validation from others

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