Not reacting to other opinions

Apr 24
Woke up late at 7.40 am
Did 5 cycles of Surya Kriya...it was so powerful. Slowly I am getting my geometrics right. Right foot is ok but left foot still need to be shaped up. Tots come in and I just ignored and focus on the breathe counting. I also learn something. Whenever I changed to new posture, I savour it before I start breathe counting. I went in so deep.

Breathing meditation was fine. Shakti was quite good as I am getting the hang of Kapala Bhakti. Towards the end of third cycle, it was so effortless. Shambavi was good. My right elbow was bit stiff but still I did a good suka kriya..saw the violet flame. Towards the end...I was dancing and singing non stop. The finale ended with some laughter. Father, I felt I reached another level in my practices.
Thanks to J for not giving up on me and got me on board for Surya kriya

Did Shoonya in the afternoon..I went in deep...real nice...

Saw the exchanges of emails between teacher and her second in command and another core member. I just see it neutrally and put in my comments. Lets see.
We put up our rationale but alas they have another sets of rationale.
The old me would have reacted. The new me just calmly takes it all in.
So appropriate..Mars card and Nine of Heart...which is N. N was also very adamant that the money is not to be spent. This time...I don't see him and teacher in cavort..but I can see their points too.

Something is happening here. I checked my Osho card for more clarity.
Going with the Flow
When this card appears in a reading it is an indication that you are able to float now, trusting that life will support you in your relaxation and take you exactly where it wants you to go. Allow this feeling of trust and relaxation to grow more and more; everything is happening exactly as it should.

Saw an email of a nice resort in outstation. Suddenly wish I could go with Z. Alas, that part of life is over..Miss him..but I am fine.

Father, thinking about it...i realised that part of my reluctance of taking leadership of Isha is to face the constraints from the teacher. Now again, I am back in the fold. Never mind..this is my karma...will face it. On N, my issue with him is over. He is just being himself. I definitely place teacher on much more responsibility. Lets see. No worries..till 12 May...