Sadhguru - human peacefulness can only comes with consciousness

Apr 14
Just had a good sleep. Did the presentation, I was feeling fine. But crowd was small.

As I was waiting, I can feel the stress coming up. I had Seven of Clubs in Neptune and Stress card in Osho. I just calmed down.
And somehow I reached out to P for support and I also want her to know I don't enjoy doing the session.  I didn't knew she was coming. She came to provide support. Like I know, her heart is in the right place. I hope she can find a pleasantness within herself.

Father, I think I did well in the presentation. I was not nervous. I too can support IE intro.

Now watching Sadhguru DVD. Something changed in me. Just wanting to be with him, after nearly 5 years of practices.

Sadhguru
The basis of ur experience is in ur spine. So having some mastery over ur spine important.
Naturally u go towards pleasant experience and avoid unpleasant experience. So, u divided the world and then try to learn about unity.
The fundamental for dividing the world is due to survival mode. U gravitate towards pleasantness and after awhile u cannot go towards unpleasantness.

Spine itself doesn't know anything but it is conducting everything. Once ur very being is accidental, u become potential calamity. Once the fear of what will happen is there in my mind.
The sense of peacefulness that animal has is unconscious. So, u cannot try hard to become unconscious. Even if u lead simple life, u cant be peaceful. U can only move forward and become conscious. 

Human being can only look at things/people with tenderness only at what they tot belong to them. They cannot do so for every aspect of life. If u cannot at trees with a certain tenderness in ur heart, u r a human. U r not yet human. It is an evolutionary process. Even the evolution has been handed to u. U can either evolved or remain stagnant.
Human being are not great but they are great possibilities. There is a distance between reality and possibility. Are we going to walk the distance or just become like every other creatures in the universe. U can never be as peaceful without walking the distance.

The problem is u r unable to determine the nature of ur experience. That's why u need to be told to be peaceful, be loving and etc. these are all great things that never work.

If u take charge of what causes experience within u. If u r in charge of that, I am 100 percent sure that u will make it very pleasant for urself.
And when u r pleasant inside, u will naturally be pleasant to people around u.
If u r feeling wonderful within urself, however other people feel, u can still be magnanimous.
When u r very pleasant, ur body and mind will work at its best. Then u become successful.

Whatever the nature of ur experience, is within u. Whether is fear, ecstasy, anger. Then u would naturally looked within to see how to make it pleasant.
If u r loving and ecstatic, u don't care about heaven or hell.
The more u know about urself, u inner engineer urself to make urself even more pleasant.
Grace is just the help to create the necessary experience. Grace is just the lubricant.

Just pay attention to ur spine. It will pay off.