There are many wounded people in this world

Apr 28
Father, just did my run and now breakfast with mom. As I was doing my walk in the park. I tot of the many negative comments on Isha volunteering from the Meditators family. I understand how they felt, just like we feel that my sister now so much into her church activity and spends much lesser time with us. But on us, we just tot she found her thing and got bit fanatic. We miss her but we didn't think of her church negatively. Perhaps we are not dependent on her.
I didn't know there were so many negative feedback. Again, classic case of the wounded attacking. There are many such people in the world.  Maybe in my family, we are taught to keep within. Well, it makes us 'physically ill but we don't attack others.

Father, I used to think power is suffering. Now I realised my gifts are a blessing. And it is with grace that I m given to teach.
And I m blessed to be able to volunteer without any family issue.
And this negative feedback on volunteering will makes us more aware to space things out. I m glad we decided to take a 2 weeks break before IE.

Father, just switched on my notebook so that I can send out the Calling list. I saw teacher's email saying that the tone of my emails is so off-putting.. even to those very enthusiastic one (meaning N) the part of when to send out emails. I noticed she puts everyone there. I just replied "Noted".  She forgot that she wanted the email to be sent out by tomorrow...but now she said that the email should have been sent 3 weeks ago...thats defending herself

Father, the old me would have reacted...but the new me sees this as just her feedback. She must really need to 'defend' N's image in her eyes; thats why has to put me as the 'bad' one so that her perception of N is kept looking good.

Anyway, part of taking the leadership in Isha involves this drama of teacher and N. It is the price to pay to undertake my Saturn in Aries. Father, thank You for helping me in my validation issue that I can now take her feedback objectively.

Father, everyone projecting out their wound...Now alas I finally realised it is not me...I need not take in feedback personally cos it is also a form of projection.

What a Change!

Just checked my 7thunder card and i got Five of Clubs - change of mind and change of plan. Yeap; I changed my perception that it is a blessing to teach other and it is a blessing to be able to volunteer. Amen

Also checked out my Osho Tarot: Change
 Life repeats itself mindlessly - unless you become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel. That's why Buddhists call it the wheel of life and death, the wheel of time. It moves like a wheel: birth is followed by death, death is followed by birth; love is followed by hate, hate is followed by love; success is followed by failure, failure is followed by success. And it goes on and on, but you don't see the pattern. Once you see the pattern, you can get out of it. .
Life is continuously changing, evolving, dying and being reborn. All opposites play a part in this vast circular pattern.
If you cling to the edge of the wheel you can get dizzy! Move toward the center of the cyclone and relax, knowing that this too will pass.

Soul
Yea...relaxed...thats the way..
Success by failure and on and on....
One day teacher supports me..the other day puts me down....
Just like P one day supports me...one day puts me down...
One day I tot our column be out and last minute is off..
It is just like feedback..one day good and another day bad...
It is my control nature that doesn't allows it...Let me release my controls..Let me go with the flow
.Just go inwards. Amen
Father, Thank You...

Wow...Suddenly tot of my this week Osho cards..so true...
Internal Influence - Healing
You carry your wound. With the ego, your whole being is a wound. And you carry it around. Nobody is interested in hurting you, nobody is positively waiting to hurt you; everybody is engaged insafeguarding his own wound. Who has got the energy? But still it happens, because you are so ready to be wounded, so ready, just waiting on the brink for anything. 



You cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? - because there is no one to be touched. There is no wound. He is healthy, healed, whole. This word whole is beautiful. The word heal comes from the whole, and the word holy also comes from the whole. He is whole, healed, holy.



Be aware of your wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will heal; with no head there is no wound. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, and accept things. 

Just for twenty-four hours, try it - total acceptance, whatsoever happens. Someone insults you, accept it; don't react, and see what happens. Suddenly you will feel an energy flowing in you that you have not felt before.
Soul
Exactly...Thats what I got to remember....This week lesson is all about that...Amen. Love You, Father.
Sadhguru, thank You for giving me the platform to learn my lesson
Thanks to all the meditators and teacher...they are playing their roles perfectly.