Capability does not means responsibility

Mar 29

Isha is important to me but not volunteering in Isha.

Today Shakti. I went in deep. After Shakti, was in silent deep meditative zone throughout the preparatory steps. Alas, it was not a fluke, my two knees can touch forehead in cat stretch. It happen yesterday and now today. 

Great swim. For the first time I focus on the front water instead of in the water. Able to slowly lift my head up in floating way.

Laughing gently at end of every half lap. Also not tired. At the second half lap, was doing snake hissing breathe. A first time. Truly was in meditative state.

As I came out of water, a tot came. Writing is important to me not because I m a writer but because its how I track my progress in opening up my unconsciousness. That's why I m willing to pay money for my ebook to be edited even if it is not commercially viable. It is for me, a complete edited ebook is for me.

Capability does not automatically means responsibility. Willingness is responsibility.
Power is not automatically responsibility.
I may be capable in many ways but does not means I have to be responsible for everything.

Willingness and capability is not the same. In Isha willingness is a must as part of volunteering.

Meeting is on but I m not going. I admit afraid of losing bond, losing approval but what I m more afraid of is carrying on.
In the end, the truth is I don't want anything to happen. That's why I need not be there.