North node in Taurus - staying in comfort zone is the key

Mar 13 aft 1

North Node in Taurus
For most people, stretching beyond their comfort zone is a requirement for personal and spiritual growth. But for Taurus NN people, this process is reversed. They tend to feel safer when they discount their own comfort and ignore their boundaries. It may even feel very frightening for them to remain aware of their comfort zone and stay within it, but it is through that process that growth can occur.
And in this lifetime, it is an absolute necessity if their relationship to succeed.

Soul
Was just sharing with S about my experiences with my Shrine and also Mahashivarathri and how Shakti Chalana Kriya has taken another level, beyond my imagination. Today practices so intense and I can finally relate to sayings about the spine feeling heaty, the  intensity until you feel like jumping or if not you will as if body is bursting or exploding...

S said that these last few months before she left in July last year, she has seen the changes. And she can now see my face even change. SJ said I have grown more loving and S said I have grown more feminine. The change is subtle and yet the loving presence is there. She said I have grown even younger than before.

I replied that I also can see it..but since my family didn't say anything, I didn't comment. All this changes arise since the day I drop meat and poultry...followed by having the Shrine and now Bhoota Shuddi and Yoga Namaskar.
Everything is falling into place.
S also understand why I need to retire. She understand my dilemma of being a 'mother' wanting to do what is needed but in the meantime losing out time with energy space for myself
What a coincidence...wasn't planning to speak to her...but I am glad I did. This is an affirmation that I am on the right path.
Thanks to P for allowing me to stay in my comfort zone..

Soul
P just messaged me that she was invited for a meet up tomorrow.
I replied okay and asked her to take a lead role.
She said she will update me and will need my support
I told her that she have it.
Earlier me considering to be in for committee is more to give her moral support.
She is now up and running.

My Osho tarot card for today.
Celebration
These three women dancing in the wind and the rain remind us that celebration never need depend on outside circumstances. We need not wait for a special holiday or a formal occasion, nor a sunny and cloudless day. True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within, and spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes, even tears of gratitude. When you choose this card, it indicates that you are becoming more and more available and open to the many opportunities that are to celebrate in life, and to spread this by contagion to others. Don't bother about scheduling a party on your calendar. Let your hair down, take your shoes off, and start splashing in the puddles right now. The party is happening all around you every moment!


Soul
Everything is falling into place.
Now I know why Nine of Diamonds in Environment and Nine of Spades in Results.
It is only when I can communicate authentically, fearlessly that I finally got what I want. Freedom from being a local lead and can just stay in energy space. Amen

This year Destiny card
Results - Nine of Spades
Somehow associated with ur Pluto card, this year will be the element of 'ending'. This could be death of someone u know, a job or health habits that have created the problems u may now be experiencing.
This letting go will certainly take u to a better place, a state of mind where u will be more free to live as u please.
U r ending a major chapter in ur life that will lead u to a new beginning that is just around the corner. In this process, there may be things that u have been doing for a long time that u will now let go of and stop doing. Let go and live.

Affirmation -  I learn to let go of people, lifestyle habits, and jobs that have completed their purpose in my life. They are fulfilled and I am free to move on the new and better things.)

Environment
Nine of Diamonds.
Giving up things, people or jobs that u once valued highly will bring many blessings and rewards this year.
On some level, this is a year of let go of the past and prepare to move on to many new and better things.
Usually we are afraid to let go of things in our life, afraid that the loss will deprive us of something important and essential to our happiness. However this year u r protected, and all completions will bring u greater fortune and happiness.