Growing up involves letting go

Apr 9 aft

Got this from my blog dated Mar 20
Soul
Tot of Y. It was scary when I declare my love for him. He helped me to overcome my fear of expression in relationship
Tot of Z, it was the scariest decision I took. But no regrets. He helped me to overcome my physical part. 

Suddenly it occur to me, just as Z left me when I learned my lesson, the same as Y left me when I learned my lesson.
Instead of saying they leave me, perhaps I can say that I have grown and hence I no longer need them.
With Z, I learned fearlessness of money..I began to spend my money..instead of keeping them..spending way below my means.
With Y, I learned fearleness in expression, I began to express my feelings..Pluto in Two of Hearts.
No regrets on having both of them...
So instead of missing them..just feel blessed that I am accelerated growth.
Now even body is being transformed. Letting go of values that I accumulated from others.


The hidden splendour
Melting with ur beloved is the easiest because it is very superficial and very momentary. It's mostly physical.
Melting with ur master is more difficult. It is melting of two consciousness. The ego has to be dropped. The mind has to be utterly silent. And once u have melted with ur master, u have melted. There is no going back.
And the third is melting alone. Almost impossible. Because melting alone, u don't have even have an excuse.

Only when u are capable of melting with ur beloved in love, then it is possible for u to melt with the master in trust. Trust is the higher quality of love.
And if u are capable of melting with the master, then the master becomes a door to the whole existence. Then u can try to melt alone.

Soul
Yes..me sitting with the Shrine..in a way is melting alone..
I am there...
No wonder I miss my shrine ...
So I am moving on melting Alone..
yes...yes...