Letting go is not easy

Mar 16

Father, P called me to explain on admin role. Basically its what we have been doing all these while.
P said she understand my fear of being volunteer coordinator. And while I said I don't like to volunteer; I have been a sincere volunteer all these years.

Father, what is it I got to do.

This week card
1. Issue
Postponement.
I made the call and got new teacher to have the private session with us. We aired our grievances of how we were side stepped.

2. Patience.
She knows now is the time to be passive, letting nature take its course. But she is neither sleepy nor indifferent; she knows it is time to be ready for something momentous. It is a time full of mystery, like the hours just before the dawn. It is time when only thing is to wait; its time to let nature takes its course.

This morning suddenly clear that L be great as volunteer coordinator and she can also be the alternative Sathsang guide.
This morning I also realised that I keep on saying I don't want anything to happen is because I don't want to be burden with the execution. Every time we want anything to happen; we have to grow it. That's why I have kept silence in promoting Isha.

3. External influences
Creativity
Creativity is the quality that u bring to the activity that you are doing. It is an attitude, an inner approach - how u look at things. The important thing is to be open to what wants to be expressed through u. Remember we don't possess our creations; they do not belong to us. True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable.

Soul
Suddenly it occur to me that the private session I initiated if also a marketing. I market and position KL team.

4. What's is needed for resolution?
In Sanskrit the name is alaya vigyan, the house where u go on throwing into the basement things that u want to do but cannot, because of social conditions, culture, civilisation. But they go on collecting there, affecting your actions, ur life, very indirectly.


Soul
One is us keeping quiet about Local team which I undertaken on Wed.
Two is keeping quiet about being unofficial volunteer lead which I finally said nope.
Three is the promotion of Isha; which I am always doing indirectly.

5. Resolution
Stress
All private goals are neurotic. The essential man comes to know, to feel, "I am not separate from the whole and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own. Things are happening of their own accord. There is no need for me to make any struggle, any effort; there is no need for me to fight for anything. I can relax and be."

Soul
Yes.
After the three days dilemma. Me dropping everything from being core team to lead volunteer.
Finally learning that I m happiest and fulfilled when I promote Isha to general public or meditators. I also feel fulfilled just sitting in energy space.
Now decision time again on taking admin role. P has pointed out that's what we have been doing all these unofficially while except we not giving official role. Now with the society being set up, roles being formalised on admin.

Now know I can take admin role cos I never let the ball drop. I can also take marketing role to promote Isha as others would be executing the growth.