Meditation is jumping out beyond karma

Apr 3 aft

Saw a blog on cafe, just opposite Y's place. Wanted to message him. I stopped myself. Let go of him. May just be my compulsion.

Destiny, freedom and soul
Meditating is not interfering with the process of karma; rather, it is taking a jump out of it. It is jumping out of the vicious circle. The circle will go on and the process will come to an end by itself. U cannot put an end to it but u can be out of it. And once u are out of it, it becomes illusory.

Without meditation, you are interfering every moment. With meditation u go beyond; u become a watcher on the hill. Deep down in the valley things go on, they continue but they don't belong to u. U are just on looker. Now u are not an actor; u become spectator.

If one is enlightened, all the suffering of many lives became concentrated in one point, one life. Like Ramana suffering from cancer and Jesus on the cross.

Soul
If I give in the compulsion I will perpetuate the cycle of unrequited love with Y. Need not go back in.
I am fine without him. I am alone but I m not unhappy.


Destiny, freedom and soul
Gurdjeff says man is machine. He means all those who are living unconsciously, who are not aware, who are not awake, who do not respond to reality but only react.

Soul
If I am not aware, I will follow my compulsions. When I am aware, I have a choice. The choice is to move on.