Going back to my Top 5 passions

Apr 11
Why me alone?
Because I can live alone.

All the times I have to be the lead, I tot that's me being unloved. I tot I can't do it. But perhaps I can do it and maybe my Soul chose this. To prove to me that I can.

Father, guide me. 

If I m truly so great. Why not create a path for myself. Be the icon instead of supporting others dream.
I don't have to stay back to do work for others, to support others. Why don't I just do work for myself. I got tons to do. I can create. That's me. That's the point I resigned.
So now just focus on what I m willing to do for myself. I need not be second in someone else dream. I can be first in my own dream.

Don't focus on negative. On how others not doing. Focus on my doing the things I want. Once that is done, I will no longer look back, ending my Two of Diamonds. I no longer need to seek validation and hence no longer goes back.

Don't pull others down but pull myself up. That's the way.

I took a 3 days week so that I can focus on my sadhana and my writing. Doing what I like, enjoying myself. Volunteering when have time.
So, why now I am putting all my times into volunteering. I forgot about myself.
So, just need to go back to myself.