It is okay to have different values

Mar 16 eve

From Wayne dyer
The only way to genuinely feel loved is to take the risk of being your true self and then find out that u are accepted and cherished for who u really are.

Soul
This msg is meant for me.
As I was talking to A and St, I told them that if I stay would be because of fear of losing friendship, losing the high profile. It is not because I want the post.
I start to ask why they have no resistance to volunteering. I said they must have like it. A said most likely.
As I was saying it I recalled North node in Taurus, focus on what I value instead of asking about other values.

Yes, me just don't value volunteering. Just as they don't value advance program. We are different, that's all.
I used to envy those meditators  that can opt to come for ad hoc volunteering. Guess it was me stopping myself.
As St said, don't see it as a loss; see it as a renunciation. See this as me going deeper into the spiritual practices.

Yes, just now I knew that angarmadhana is the one hata that I be doing in the morning. Will shift asanas to night time.
Amen.

I need do nothing. For next few months just focus on my practices to prepare myself for Kailash.

Internal influence
Patience.
We have forgotten how to wait. Even the trees know it - when It is time to bring the flowers and when it is time to let go of all the leaves and stand naked against the sky. They are still beautiful in the nakedness, waiting for the new foliage with a great trust that the old one has gone, and the new will soon be coming, and the new leaves will start growing.
In silence, and waiting something insides u goes on growing - ur authentic being. And one day it jumps and becomes a flame, and ur whole personality is shattered, u are a new man.

It is time to be passive, letting nature takes its course. But she is neither sleepy nor indifferent; she knows its time to be ready for something momentous. It is a time full of mystery, like the hours just before the dawn. It is time when the only thing to do is to wait.

Soul
Alas me able to 'stand up' and be fearless in personal relationship.
Me saying no to volunteering.