Melting with partner, then with Guru and alas Alone

Mar 21 eve

Why do I want to talk to Y?
Is it because I have earlier said that I was close to Y and people expect me to get him in.
If no one knows would I bother.
Aiyah. Let him be la. He want to avoid u. He just want to be another meditator.

The hidden splendour
Melting with ur beloved is the easiest because it is very superficial and very momentary. It's mostly physical.
Melting with ur master is more difficult. It is melting of two consciousness. The ego has to be dropped. The mind has to be utterly silent. And once u have melted with ur master, u have melted. There is no going back.
And the third is melting alone. Almost impossible. Because melting alone, u don't have even have an excuse.

Only when u are capable of melting with ur beloved in love, then it is possible for u to melt with the master in trust. Trust is the higher quality of love.
And if u are capable of melting with the master, then the master becomes a door to the whole existence. Then u can try to melt alone.

One who has never been able to melt in love with a woman or with a man will be incapable of melting with the master. He does not know even the language of melting. He does not even know the most superficial experience of it. So start with the simplest.

Nothing has to be renounced. Everything has to be deepened. Everything has to be experienced as totally and as intensely as possible.

Soul
Mmm, me lack boundary in romantic relationship. My weakness and my strength.
Not sure about this. But I did melt with nature a few times.

Just remember that's my Two of Diamond. Difficulty to let go. Also today is Saturn, best let it be.
Anyway, at least got out the msg I needed to pass. As for him let him be la. And this time didn't delete the chat. Just let it stay. Previously always delete the chat. He read it but didn't respond. Mmm, no response no longer affect me like before. Guess that's an improvement.