North Node in Taurus falls for 'troubled' type

Apr 10 aft

Mmm, P didn't return my call yet; which is not normal. My mind start to think of invalidation. I am truly a sad case. Really glad I been alone. Truly need to make myself whole before
Remember P receives so much negative feedback and still can think of others with issues. Me, haven't receive feedback and yet condemns myself. Truly must learn from P.

North node in Taurus
Discrimination is also an issue in that they attract "troubled" types as candidates for close relationships.  They tend to be drawn to people who are poor risks for closeness. When they bond with and put their trust in one of these people, they end up being disappointed.
They think they can help heal the other person and expect the other person to be grateful and offer reciprocal support. But this equals "how to lose" for Taurus North node people! 
Their job is to discriminate and form relationships with those who are already psychologically healthy.

Soul
True.
When I met Z, he was just over divorce. When I met Y, he was having issue with his family.
When they recover, no thanks to me.
Mmm, let me focus on myself grown up.

North node in Taurus
One way they get involved with the wrong people is when they seek to gain validation from others by taking on their values.
If they get in touch with what is really important to them and clearly represent those values, then they will attract people who truly resonate with them.
In this incarnation, they need stability, not crisis.

Soul
True. Sad case.
With Z, wrong values and corrected somewhat with Y. Just that our age difference is too much. I knew and yet I fall. Truly "living on the edge".
So good both are not here. Both also got crisis.
Actually both also not my true match.

Astrology for soul by jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
Bonding
Because these folks are accustomed to shared energies and mutual empowerment being the key to their survival, subconsciously they think they need another person's energy in order to live.
Relationships they just "plunge into" are almost predestined for failure because their basis is a temporary energy connection rather than a true fit with the other person.

Soul
Mmmm. That's explain my need for validation and why all romantic relationships didn't work

North node in Taurus
To achieve successful long-term relationships, they need to first recognise that their energy is enough. They can live off their own energy. As long as they feel incomplete - they will continue to attract people who also have low self esteem. But without untamed neediness driving them, they can take their time in discovering whose energy will actually increase them and bring them joy.

Soul
Alas I truly have low self esteem. Continuously self-rape. Doing things I don't like so to ensure validation.