I could be wanted simply by being me

Apr 8 eve
From Rebellesociety
But then, one day, after repeated goodbyes from many different you’s, I traveled to a place deep inside of myself, that wondered if love could look differently.
I lived there alone, learning that I could “do” for me, that I could validate myself, that I could be worthy simply by being, that my value lies in my humanity.
Awaking one day, I realized that I could be wanted simply for being me: for my wide, wide smile, laughing while telling a joke. For my clumsy bare feet tripping on the sidewalk, running to embrace a friend.

Love isn’t created by doing; rather it is accessed, tapped into and unleashed, when we meet a kindred soul.
Perhaps it’s tricky in romantic love, but I know it to be true when I think about those whom I love most in the world. I appreciate what they do for me, but my love isn’t a result of their actions.
My love swells out of the beauty of their being, in the delight I feel in their presence.
So I’ve embarked upon a new endeavor: I’m actively making myself unnecessary.
I’m unwinding the cords that I wove around others to make me indispensable in their lives.

I’m learning to walk away from people that are always needing, and letting go of my addiction to being needed.
I’m opening up to those who want to grab a cup of tea to talk about life. Those who invite me to dinner, or to see a play, or to watch a band they think we might both like.

I’m learning to consider requests instead of immediately answering demands. I’m listening for as many you’s as I’s in a conversation, for as many questions as answers.
It’s freeing, this relinquishment of the need to be needed.
And in its place, I find myself wanting to be wanted.
And because I now love and give to and do for myself, I’m also learning to be okay with it when I’m not.

Soul
Amen. This so resonate with me b


From rebelle society
Sometimes we have to let go and see where life takes us. Feelings are not meant to be controlled. We have to let go of what we think things are before they can transform into something else. Surrender your feelings. Surrender your control.
“The heart has reasons, which reason knows nothing of.” ~ Blaise Pascal

Soul
Yes.

Just now was feeling rejected when I received a reprimand from regional boss. I can feel myself getting smaller, scolding myself for oversight.
In truth he is only doing his job. Reminding me. That's just show how fragile I am. Truly need to focus on being me.

Earlier on received an angry call from P. She raised her voice as if scolding me. I start to feel unloved and want to run away.  I just hold back myself and try to not take it personally. Perhaps she is angry about something else. A few minutes later her tone of voice reduce and she calmed down. She then shared she is overload and frustrated with new teacher who always on last minute note. Making her scramble, well, truly her karma. I  am less affected by new teacher.