Another hiccup with Y

Dec 21

Woke up 5.45 am to go with sisters to see a skin specialist. Didn't do my practices today.
Lovely trees, so alive and green. My energy level is good. This trip I did 3 days of practices which is amazing. As I was driving to cafe just now, suddenly fall into Samyama mode.

Just did afternoon Shoonya.
Alas Y messaged me on something...which I don't know how to respond so I messaged him back with a pix of my lunch. He didn't respond and moments later I replied that he can do what he wants.

Mmm, alas we finally come to an impasse..that is expected. We are both mentally attracted to each other. But this route is someplace we both can't go..too much obstacles. Great I saw my Ruling and Destiny challenge of Two of Hearts and Three of Hearts.
So, just now instead of dwelling on Y, who is not the right guy anyway, I just said to Linga, that I want someone like Y for my husband. I want the mental compatibility I have with him. I also want the physical compatibility that I had with Z. The good thing is that both Y and Z has the same family values that I wanted. So, I am attracting what I am. No more dwelling over wrong ones...

Today's Uranus card.
Unexpected events may rock your expectations but also brings in good things that you have never thought about.

My Daily Card
The King of Spades

The King of Spades is the final, and most powerful card in the deck, representing both mastery of one's environment and one's self. Whenever this card appears you can bet that you will experience good fortune and results.
It is especially good for legal matters and business but can be applied to any area of life for success. It is truly the card of 'success in all things' but brings the most blessings to those who are ready and willing to take responsibility for their life and work and who can take a leadership position in their work. Remember this is a King we are talking about and every King has a kingdom.
Be prepared to take a leadership role and to live by your own wisdom when this potent card appears. Success is yours for the taking, but you have to stand up and claim it.

Soul
I had tot Y and I would die down when I was in oversea but our interaction continues. Didn't expect it to die down today. Bit disappointed. I know I m suppressing my sadness. But nothing I can do. I no longer want to go back there. Okay, just feel it. The more I suppressed the nose becomes blocked. Yea, I have feeling of sadness, felt that I lost him.  We were interacting about one month plus. Feel it and let the feeling be. Yes, I feel sad.