Reaffirming my desires to Sadhguru and Linga Bhairavi

Nov 30 eve
Had an afternoon nap. Dreamed about Z's wife. I just let it be. When I woke up I said Sadhguru and Linga will do the necessary.

Went for a walk in the park. Lovely grass, so alive so green. Trees are nice and contented. Breeze blowing. On the first cycle, singing silently in my mind. Second cycle just watching breathe. Third cycle I sing out loud, the song just came out, caught me unaware. On the second cycle I ran fast in the smelly area. In the third cycle I ran slowly in the smelly area and continue till the end of cycle. So exhilarating, finally can run.

Mmmm, Y and I now chat deeper, going in personal. Looks like this candidate Y not in running. There is already an arranged marriage, he is not 'free'. I was slightly disappointed. Never mind, Sadhguru and Linga will do the necessary. My role is to be contented unconditionally. At least got all this personal information in a week. This can be a good friendship to have.
Amen.

I only know one thing now. No one will ever dictate my state of happiness. Without a partner or with a partner, my happiness remains the same.

Today was Four of Clubs in Uranus.

Besides also remember that I got Seven of Diamonds, remind myself the abundance of Universe. I already told Sadhguru and Linga of my desires, they will do the necessary. The Universe will conspires to bring me the desires that I have told Sadhguru and Linga.

Father, I have been truly blessed in this spiritual path. Everything external is supportive, no resistance. The only resistance I have is internal. Father, seeing Y's dilemma on marriage and children make me realised I m blessed that in the end I didn't have to change my path on no children. Thanks to Z's single focus of his path with children, I was freed.

Anyway, my wish is still clear. My husband and I will go to Kailash next year.