We can truly manifest by exercising our choice

Dec 2
Woke up upon alarm at 4.50 am. I changed my alarm yesterday night cos I slept after 12 am. So, I knew I need 5 hours sleep. Woke up feeling refreshed. Guess pre-sleep Samyama helps.
Light up a candle for the shrine. Did my corrected guru pooja with open eyes. Not good will be doing practices these few evening.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya, alignment and breathe is okay.
Shakti was good. Little Tots comes in and I can hold myself not to follow. Kapala Bhakti is quite effortless.  Alas, I sat through the whole Shakti without lifting the feet. Amazing. Towards the end, laughing and followed by non stop singing. Singing continue up to half of Shambavi preparatory steps and followed by silent singing.
My left knee can now touch my forehead in cat stretch.
Towards the end of Shambavi just silence. Contented silence. Plough back was great. Didn't stay long cos it was raining and I want to avoid the traffic jam. So, finished but earlier today.

Got this from Facebook
We are born in one day.
We die in one day.
We can change in one day.
And we can fall in love in one day.
Anything can happen in just one day.

Soul
I like that. Teacher asked me if I have changed my mind after Samyama on sabbatical for main guide. I responded no change.

Now only read this sharing from K by Rumi
Your future already exists as possibilities, but u need to choose which future u manifest.
When u are tuned in to who u are, u can feel the natural pull. Ur wish is ur's future wish. That's what Rumi meant by "What u seek is seeking you." 

There is just one catch. When u are constantly looking to others for validation, u tune out from who u are. In such situation, what u might think is ur wish is really someone else's wish, and therefore unlikely to manifest.
So, first love and accept yourself. Then u know what is best for u.

Soul
First tot was how great is this. So I was on right track in loving myself. When I m in meditative zone, love songs automatically comes.
Second tot was wish I can share this with Y. So appropriate for him. But I hold myself back. He didn't reply my previous message. Don't really wish to meddle. If the message is meant for him, he will contact me.

Kapalvriksha by Sadhguru
U might have heard of people who ask for something and beyond all expectations it comes true for them. Generally this happens to people who are in faith.
Faith work only for those people who are simple minded. Thinking people, people who are into too much thinking, for them it never works.
U have been using the past experience of life as a basis for deciding whether something is possible or not possible. U have decided that what has not happened until now cannot happen in the future. This is a disgrace to humanity and the human spirit. What has not happened until now on this planet can happen tomorrow!

What is possible and what is not possible is not ur business. That is nature's business. Nature will decide that. U just see what it is that u really want and strive for that.
And if ur tot is created in a powerful way, without any negativity, without any negative  tots bringing it down the intensity of the tot process, it will definitely manifest.

Soul
Great.
Everything is coming along.