Focus on positive instead of negative

Dec 3

Woke up before alarm. Doze bit and woke up again at 3,50 am. I slept about 11.40 am, so around 4 hour sleep. But body is fine. Remembered I got to light candle for shrine.
Sang guru pooja and goes into joy. So nice. Decided to just correct my singing. It will take a while to correct 4 years of singing.

Asanas were okay. Sitting asanas has improved for the two leg posture. My forehand able to touch and hold position for longer period. Can do so for all three rounds.
There were some tots of Y but nothing disturbing. At times I just said let Linga do the necessary. And I should request my wishes with more details. I want someone like Y but older below 40.

Wish either I m younger or Y is older. Then a reply came. U are attracted to each other now. If he was older now or you are younger now, both may not be attracted to each other. Yea, true. Well, leave it to Linga. She brought him to me. She will do the necessary. It is not for me to plan. My wish should be the same; my husband and I will go to Kailash next year.

Breathing meditation was nice. Just sitting comfortably in arashidharna posture.
Shakti was good. Didn't rest. Towards the end, laughter came and followed by singing love songs until preparatory steps.
Shambavi was good. Towards the end just sitting contently in silence. Plough back was great.
I feel so blessed to have the shrine. The shrine truly propel me in my samadhi path.

Father, I m surprised. The old me would be screaming blue murder for falling for Y. But the new me seems to take this calmly. Irrespective what happened, it ended the period with Z. I have moved out from the past.