The shrine truly works

Dec 3 eve
Sang guru pooja. When I reach Karpura Gauram, start to dance and I m into zone.

Did my Samyama. The meditation is now coming on life. A few hours ago thats my experience. I was actually meditating. Shoonya was a knockout. So blessed to have the shrine. I also decided to light the candle in the evening too.

Got this from Facebook.
From Louise Hays
I attract the perfect mate and our love grows stronger everyday.

It is now night, mind is ticking on Y's non response so I decided to turn on Samyama mode.
I no longer want to feel what the mind says.

Got this from Facebook
Let what comes come.
Let what goes go.
Why do you worry?

Soul
Conscious vs compulsive actions.
Father, not taking coffee is a conscious action as coffee is still in me.
Compulsive is when we go on auto mode, without making intelligent choices.

Father, automatically taking personally other's response to my overture is compulsive. Automatically taking that as a reflection of my lovability is compulsive too.

Just now watch the tv drama whereby the gal said she wants to have the guy and yet is saying no cos she can't afford to be hurt again. This reminds me of myself. I want my husband and need to overcome my compulsive fear of being rejected. When there is no fear, I can be my professional self.

Sadhguru in Kapalvriksha
We are in compulsive state of action. So organising our minds fundamentally means moving from a compulsive state of activity to a conscious state of activity.
What is possible or not possible is not your business. That's is nature's business. Nature will decide that. U just see what it that u really want and strive for that. And if ur tot is created in a powerful way, without any negativity, without any negative tots bringing down the intensity of the tot process, it will definitely manifest.

Soul
Auto negative tots is also a form of compulsion for me; hence the Seven of Clubs.

Mmm, now feeling tired at 11 pm; guess a long day. Also today faced my challenge of not going into compulsive negative tots.

Sadhguru on Kapalvriksha
To create what you really care for, the first and foremost thing is that what u want must be well manifested in ur mind. Once that is clear and we are committed to creating it, now there is a continuous process of tot in that direction. Once u can maintain a steady stream if tot, without changing direction, this is definitely going to happen in ur life.

Soul
Yes I truly want my husband. I no longer facilitate whenever I feel hurt. Must just focus on what I want, what makes me happy instead of what makes me afraid.