Taking charge of my Seven of Clubs

Dec 21 aft

Mmm, reading my blog. I tot the bubble with Y will burst 3 weeks ago but it didn't. This is second time. Do I always bolt like this?

Mmm, Seven of Hearts. Looking at myself. Yes, it is challenging but it is also spiritual. It is challenging cos it forced me to face my fear. But now that I no longer see other lack of response as a personal valuation, the pain is lesser. Suddenly occur to me. Take this relationships as my spiritual path.

Without any hesitation I just messaged Y. I now realised he is asking me a question. And me in my disappointment, crawl back into my shell and I couldn't respond. But I can now. He just wanted some answer. I guess I should feel okay that he sees that I can help him. He is just a fellow in my spiritual path.

Mmm, I am back on track. Glad I didn't go back to the past.
Today I acted like a King of Spades. I took charge. I didn't see his lack of response as rejection. I see it as him facing some issue. True enough, he is disturbed that he is not on track.

But now I need to have parameters enforced and put him in the right place. From today onward, he will be just like A to me. Like A, Y just need more nudge as his path is deeper and he got more dilemma. Besides he is a Ten.

Today's Uranus card.
Unexpected events may rock your expectations but also brings in good things that you have never thought about.

My Daily Card
The King of Spades

The King of Spades is the final, and most powerful card in the deck, representing both mastery of one's environment and one's self. Whenever this card appears you can bet that you will experience good fortune and results.
It is especially good for legal matters and business but can be applied to any area of life for success. It is truly the card of 'success in all things' but brings the most blessings to those who are ready and willing to take responsibility for their life and work and who can take a leadership position in their work. Remember this is a King we are talking about and every King has a kingdom.
Be prepared to take a leadership role and to live by your own wisdom when this potent card appears. Success is yours for the taking, but you have to stand up and claim it.

Soul
I did it, I was a King today.
Instead of wallowing in past tots of being unlovable and go crawling into my shell. I took charge and behold, Y truly was not the one...there was nothing lost.
He just want some answers. I am his Cosmic Reward card and just here to show the way. We obviously know each other in our past lives as we can be so comfortable in our inner tots. We can share without feeling being sidelined, ridiculed or misunderstood.
Y has helped me to see that my relationship with Z was just sexual. Y has helped me to close the door on Z completely. So, now me to return the favour; thats all.

Father, i feel i have mastered myself today. This is totally unexpected.