Now learning to run, feel exhilarating

Dec 1
Woke up 6.45 am at alarm; broke my dream. Took a doze for five minutes and came up.

Walked into the park, the mind automatically sing love songs. I m back. I can see the love from the trees. I can see the amazing green of the grass. Quite an effortless walk. I interspaced walk with running at every cycle.
It was exhilarating, adrenalin pushed up. Do the run at my own space. If I can now swim breast stroke I can run too.
In the third cycle, I suddenly sing out loud. Guess joy can't be contained.
I m back with my oasis of love.

Everything coming together.
There were only some little tots of Y. Decided to stop our messages as bubble had burst. If he asked, my diplomatic answer would be he was busy. My honest answer is: mental attraction; stop before I cling. I now choose honest answer.

To my surprise, a tot came and I just messaged without thinking.
Just messaged him as a tot occurred.
Every decision has consequences. Just take the one u can live happily with. 😊

Now that the bubble is burst I can see that he just needed a helping hand. His dilemma is because decision hasn't been made. That's why delayed execution and prolonged dilemma.
Like the Osho tarot said, if my love is just sharing, then its emperor's love.

As for my husband. I believed that there are many men out there looking for someone like me. I leave it to Sadhguru and Linga to do the necessary.
The bubble with Y has burst but I got cleared on the sexual love with Z and I know its is try over for me too.
Now just need to learn the abundance of love.