North node in Taurus - focus on building my values instead of bonding

Dec 24

Despite the medication yesterday and sleeping around 1 am, body woke up around 6 am. It must be the pre-sleep breathing meditation.
So did 5 cycle of Surya kriya..quite effortless albeit difficult on the breathe fluttering since nose is completely blocked.
Breathing is quite okay..
Shakti was good...toward the end starts to sing.
This time no more singing goodbye song...just sang this instead...
my own lyric...Love is easy; Love is sweet; Love is evermore....

No more seeking challenging relationship to prove my valuation..
Just like I stopped seeking challenging jobs..the same will happen to romantic relationships..

So, I won't be fantasising on Y and me...too much challenges...
But surprisingly now that I don't think of bonding with him..we got even better...we just msg chat on phone for nearly one and half hour...

To my surprise, my weight gone down further...it is now 56.3kg...so I lost about 15 pounds since March this year.


Now updating the blog and read this. Good reminder. This is my 52 days Four of Diamonds and Four of Hearts in Jupiter. Be focused on strengthening my values

North node in Taurus
They were born looking for their soul mates. Their challenge in this lifetime is to focus less on bonding and more on building their values - then they will attract the right mate.

Deep in their heart, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment. To have this dream comes true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves.

When they no longer need another person to make them feel whole, only then will they attract the right life partner. They feel acutely lonely sometimes, aching for their mate. They long for the comfort of consistent, dependable companionship, and this is a lifetime where loyal companionship is their birthright.

Soul
Amen..Alas, I finally realised the door is always open.
I was the one who locked myself inside.
I was the one who created all those suffering dramas.
No more...
Will now have relationships intelligently.