Slowly manifesting the profile of partner that I truly wanted

Dec 6 aft
Father, finally understood the differences of physical, mental and spiritual relationship.

With Z is mainly physical.

With Y is mainly mental. Not sure of spiritual yet. But definitely there is a past life connection cos there is an instant trust between us.

These few days I have affirmed my wish to Sadhguru and Linga. Will do Kapalvriksha this weekend. My Jupiter period has start to food.

I ignored all tots on Y and I. Firstly our age difference is too big, secondly different culture. If the local person can't even adapt to me, what more am imported one. No longer want challenges in romantic relationship. Will draw up parameters.

On postponement card under internal influence could be the delay in Kapalvriksha. But now I have the profile from Y, just need to add age and someone that is courageous enough for both of us.

Father, no more chasing for rship. No more looking for challenges to overcome. Just as I said no more difficult friends, same goes no more difficult partner. My future relationships will just flow effortlessly, both parties meriting into each other, supporting each other and our relationship. No more on me pushing for it. Everything is now mutual.
The right one will come to me and it will happen. Meanwhile I stay in my contented silence and aloneness.

Evenin
Glad G is here. She shared with me her first one was physical, her second one was mental. With her husband it was both physical and mental.

I m glad for her visit. I already decided this morning that Y is not meant for me. I want my real partner , my husband. I want the one I have spiritual connection too. Now I can see that Y's spiritual experience is not as deep as mine.

Anyway, decision made. It is settled.