Opening up to Y..without fear of past..

Dec 26 eve

Women Food and God
Jill Bolte Taylor, a Harvard-trained neuroanatomist, talks about the euphoria she experienced when during a stroke, her left-brain functions of linear thinking and using the past to orient the present stopped functioning. When there was no longer a memory of the way things were, there was no concept of the self, no longer a me and a you. Without the grid of the past imposed on the moment to moment unfolding of the present, there was only peace, only radiance, only awareness, profound awe at living itself.

The bliss that occurs by arriving where you are. When we are not reconstructing the past in every nanosecond, what is here is so satisfying, so unbelievably simple that once tasted, it changes everything. Because then you know what's possible and u refuse to settle for anything less.

Soul
Something amazing happen. After my last night declaration about our connection to Y.  Today Y asking if I do astrology connection for everyone and I said nope, he was the second one. He then said he must have impacted my life either positively or negatively. I told him positively. He must have guessed the first one was my ex, Z.

Few exchanges thereafter. The old me would have reacted compulsively by having negative tots.
No more compulsive negative tots. End of Seven of Clubs.