Nov 29 eve
Paul Coelho
When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person to realise his dream.
Soul
For the first time I believed this can happen.
This morning for the first time I cried out to Sadhguru that I desires my partner. I want a companion in my spiritual path.
I recalled I too cried when I told Linga about my desires. I felt bad for asking. Well, no more. I deserved more and more.
At first tot not hope after the afternoon messages but towards the evening Y messaged me a pix again. So, our chat started. Later during dinner with friends, coincidentally his name was mentioned and I told him. We then chatted again. Not sure where is this leading to but there is mutual mental attraction and compatibility. I like his mental waves.
Coincidentally he arrived here when Z and I broke off for second time just before Sadhguru's visit.
Anyway, nice to feel the excitement. Now I truly know what I had with Z was sexual love. With Y, it was mental attraction. Reminds me of my attraction to R many years ago. Back then it was more on philosophy and psychology chat but now Y and I on spiritual chat. I like that, a spiritually empowered partner. I want both; love and meditation.
I m not sure if he wants love but at least he wants meditation.
He seems much younger than me but there is a maturity about him; he an old soul too. Anyway, I know I am totally not attracted to guys my age cos I looked and feel ten years than my age.
Amen.
Sat in front of the sadhana pix. Tot of wanting to do Samyama but looks like They got other ideas. Suddenly went into meditation mode. Similar to knock out in Linga Bhairavi's temple. Came out in 40 minutes and that's because I knew it was late. Now already 12.38 am.
Father, I told teacher about sadhana pix and she called it a shrine.
It is truly a shrine. And I now know I must do the guru pooja with candle. I truly wish to grace their presence too; they have grace me. Amen. Truly a shrine.
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