New beginning...

Nov 27 eve

Did my Shoonya and such a knockout. Samyama was fine too.

Mmmm, can see my mind working overtime on Y.  I just bring my breathe awareness, not going into this past mode. There is nothing to react on.

Got this from Facebook
Ekhart Tolle
To know yourself as the Being beneath the thinker,
The stillness under the mental noise,
The love and joy under the pain, is freedom, salvation and enlightenment.

Soul
Yes.
Father, while I m glad that I m 'stirred' as a point of new beginning but I no longer want to be the old me. It took me one whole year of anguish to reach my New me. No more going back. No more of belittling myself not rejecting others. What's will be, will be.
This few days of delightful interaction with Y was a surprise to me. No wonder there is The Lovers card under Osho tarot, "What is needed for resolution?" 

This week Osho tarot card.
1. Issue
Guidance
U have to awaken that Buddha and ur life will shower blessings, benedictions. Ur life will become so radiant with good, with godliness, more than u possibly can conceive. It almost like light, ur room is dark, just bring light in.
In following the inner guide, u will feel more whole, more integrated, as if u are moving outwards from the center of ur being. If u go with it, this beam of light will carry u exactly where u need to go.

2. Internal influence that u are unable to see
Going with the flow
Become a flow; don't remain stagnant. Move, and move like water. It is non-ambitious; it never hankers to be the first, it want to be last. It does not want to declare itself unique, exceptional, extraordinary. It has no ego idea.
When this card appears, it is an indication that u are able to float now, trusting that life will support u in ur relaxation and take u exactly where it wants u to go. Allow this feeling of trust and relaxation to grow more and more; everything is happening exactly as it should.

3. External influence of which you are aware
The Miser
This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to, and what we feel we possess that is so valuable that it need to be protected by a fortress. It could be something as simple as sharing our time with a friend, or taking the risk of expressing love up another. Like a wall that is sealed up and become stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them.
Loosen ur grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.

Soul
Mmm, first was with Y; I was surprised but I just go with the flow.
Then the request to speak at IPO, I said nope twice. But since there is no one, they truly asking for help and is going to be joint effort; I agree. The stint as being a Sathsang guide has given me confidence. Also, seeing the calibre of speakers also led me to know I can do better.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Sex is the seed, love is the flower, compassion is the fragrance.
Buddha has defined compassion as love plus meditation. When ur love is not just a desire for the other, when ur love is not only a need, when ur love is a sharing, when ur love is not that of a beggar but an emperor, when ur love is not asking for something in return but is ready only to give - to give for the sheer joy of giving - then add mediation to it and the pure fragrance is released. That is compassion; compassion is the highest phenomenon.

As we mature, we can begin to experience the love that exists beyond sexuality and honors the unique individuality of the other. We begin to understand that our partner often functions as a mirror, reflecting unseen aspects of our deeper self and supporting us to become whole. This love is based on freedom, not expectation or need. It wings takes us higher and higher towards the universal love that experiences all as one.

Soul
Nice. This was my first attraction to a spiritually empowered partner. I like the interaction.
I have asked for a spiritual empowered partner, preferable Isha based too; so we are compatible and can mutually support each other.

5. Resolution
Breakthrough
It is the greatest adventure to go through a breakdown consciously. Without facing this danger, nobody has become integrated, nobody has ever become an individual, indivisible.
If u are feeling that "enough is enough," allow urself to take the risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept ur energy from flowing. In doing so u will be amazed at the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to ur life.

Mystic musing
Unknown to the deluded being is the wicked reign of karma, seeping into being - into every cell, predetermining how a cell, an organ or an individual behaves, controlling its breath, thought and emotion.
Untold despair befalls the seeker as he realises one day that his most prized 'freedom' is but a complex function of the karmic influences from the past.

Soul
Mmmm.

A few hours later, mind acting. I smiled at it. No more rides.