Going with the flow on Y (2)

Dec 27

Woke up with tot of Y, just a neutral tot neither positive or negative. Me still focus on my easy love; so can't be him.

Did my practices. Surya kriya was good despite the phelgm and cough. Shakti good too. Shambavi not okay cos nose was too blocked, can't do fluttering and aum chanting properly. Toward the end just contented silence.
Reaffirm my thanks to Linga for fulfillment of my wish.

No plan to message Y but it just happen.
The best conversation is the one that u don't have to worry about what you say, you can just be you.

Got this from Facebook
I am not open to many people.
I am usually quiet and I don't really like attention. So if I like u enough to show the real me, you must be very special.

Soul
Y said he can't chat if he is not close to the person. He said he has never chatted so much in his life; except with me. All the chats he has with all the people  for the past few years can be combined into the chats he has with me the past one month.

So I too impact him la.

Father, just see this as it is. So great to not have the negative compulsion tots of my valuation and etc. No more agonising feeling of being rejected. No more self judgement on loss of pride; loss of vulnerability and etc.  Everything no longer there.

The past Seven of Clubs and seven of Hearts are gone. Amen.

Truly ready for my real partner. Amen.