Seven of Hearts - looking at myself

Dec 1 aft

Today card, so true.

My Daily Card
The Seven of Hearts

The Seven of Hearts indicates that whatever time this card appears could be marked by many challenges in love and feelings in your close relationships. The Seven of Hearts can manifest as betrayal by those we love. In any case, we will be tested to see just how attached we are to others being a certain way.

Seven, being a highly spiritual number, promises success in love if you try a new approach and adopt a more selfless or unattached attitude. If we can allow others to be who they are and not place so many demands upon them, we not only become more aware of their true personalities, but also we allow ourselves the freedom to be just who we are and experience just how it feels to be free of fear and attachment. Many high spiritual experiences have occurred while a seven was present.

Soul
The bubble on Y has burst..

I have made the choice..on unconditional happiness for myself.
I also made the choice that even if I am not the one 'in care', I need not reject them completely. Just be myself, to be who I am.


Dec 1 eve
Had lunch with A, not sure why suddenly I was talking about M and her issue on positivity. My emotions were exaggerated vs the issue. A asked me why. I said not sure. I then said its because of my value system, when people said something, they must meant it.
In personal and romantic relationship I normally try to avoid saying bad things out of fear of losing validation. A said he is surprised cos I m direct in Isha. I said I treat my stint as a guide in Isha as professional and hence I can be direct.
Then suddenly it occurred to me that until now I haven't told M how I truly felt about her positivity issue. Since I never shared my feelings, she continues to think she is right. But on the other hand, who am I to judge. She seems to cater to a group of friends that like positivity. Perhaps, it's just me that blamed her for ending us. When in fact I pulled out cos I can't sit in front and be hypocrite. I just can't be false and it takes energy to pretend and so I avoid. Mmm, then I too am not real, avoiding, trying to be positive when actually the negative feelings being suppressed. So whenever I tot of her, I overreacted. Mmm, today realy Seven of Hearts.

On Y, didn't really tot of him today. Amen. 

Found out that Sunday and Tuesday is Kapalvriksha best day.