My sadhana hall pix is strong and bright like the Trinity

Nov 28
Woke up upon alarm at 4 am, body was not tired.
A tot of Y but I waived it off cos I know Linga will handle it.

Sang guru pooja and followed by one cycle of Surya kriya and asanas. It was quite good. The sitting asana has improved loads vs last Tuesday session. Plough back was good too.
Sat in arashidharna but back not straight to do breathing. I did for a long while without shifting position. Truly a stable posture to sit. It just happen.
Shakti was great. I only lose partial awareness at the mid of third cycle of Kapala Bhakti on some office and Sathsang guide matters. At the end laugh a bit followed by singing love song continuously till the preparatory steps of Shambavi.
Shambavi was good. Was laughing in aum chanting. Helicopter hands swinging during fluttering. Towards sat in arashidharna, just stillness, silence and contentment. I sat as long as I can cos I know its getting late. Finished practice and I look up seeing the sadhana pictures. So strong and bright, like a trinity.

Toss at decided that I need more time for my practices. I m now doing Shakti longer and Breathing too. Today I finished at 7.17 am and left home at 7.36 am which is too late. So, will need to get up earlier, changed alarm from 4 am to 3.50 am. This year I have push forward alarm time from the original 4.30 to 4 am and now 3.50 am. Amen.
Today driving out, just watching my breathe. Feels contentment.

Today I finally understand that what I had for Z was sexual love. And sexual love doesn't last. Well, I have matured and Linga will give me what I need.

Mystic Musings
For a person who knows his limitations, even if something comes up in life, he's not really affected. It doesn't really touch him.

Soul
This is great. Since I know my issue on romantic relationship. I don't let the negative tots engulfed me. I also make sure communicate and set parameter on what I values. And this time I ask question whenever I got any doubt. No more keep quiet.

Mystic Musing
If u are sensitive and subtle enough, just by looking at a person, u will be able to see his whole lifetimes of karma, here and now. That will be ur understanding of people and who they are.
Meditation may be a quick way which takes u to that level of subtleness, but for a lot of people it is not possible, because of their karma, their body or their mind, something will not allow them to meditate. One purpose of doing practices and yoga kriyas is that u become sensitive.

Soul
This morning I had a tot of M. She is trying to present a positive front so that people sees her well. Actually, in fact she got 'nothing'. She is re-enacting her past of trying to impress her school mates and now friends.
If we are not conscious, we are re-living our past over and over again, only the form is different.

Soul
Me, has stopped my issue on validation in career and personal relationship. Now will stop my issue in validation in romantic relationship.