Cosmic Lesson (22) - worst is over

Feb 25
Woke up
First tot. What a sad case, falling for a guy who placed u last, who is focused.

Positive tot. He didn't place me last. Like he said if I need him, he be there. If not, he focused on what he need to do. He can be depended on if I need him. I only need to ask.

Is God making me suffer or am I making myself suffer especially with my abandonment issue, cosmic lesson

Looks like u r on track to the unfoldment of ur destiny, that's why u r facing this. So, its a happy problem.

After practice
He said the deal between us is done. Sure thing. All internal issues handled. We now need to go external only.

I tot how he handled that people doesn't call him etc. Don't he feel he is not wanted. Is he that strong? Doesn't he need affirmation?

Then a tot came, is not that he is strong. For him, once the deal is done, u don't change. That's why he can do his work with total involvement. And when u need him or he needs u, he expect it to be on as the deal been made. No one should change and back out. Tot no wonder he was caught off guard with his ex. He tot deal is done, what happen?.
Like he said he is a bottom line guy. Once decision is made, deal is done, u stay put.

Father, if I stop comparing with the normal ideal rship. he is perfect for me. Both of us have issue, but are mature adults, r thinkers and rship is not the only priority in our life.

I don't know what is happening. Suddenly I see my love life is effortless. We have approached it like 2 mature adults, both setting out our expectations and bottom line. We have opened all our doors.

I now know that he is still with me even he doesn't contact me. For him, the deal is done.

Actually rship is like a plant. U have a seed, but u need to water it, give it what it need and it will grow. He tot rship is like a business deal. U make a deal and is done. U can leave it and it will be there. (Apr 2 - his issue is relationship, no wonder first card is King of Diamond. Also his personality ESTJ furthers confirms it.)

Father, this is a year in which I transform the way I approach romantic rship, office peer relationship, boss relationship.

Father, he said he didn't expect to find a partner in the group. But somehow we found each other and he want us to proceed. Even when he was angry with me, he knew subconsciously that we have something on. Turn out it was true. He said most rship start with a bang, so we should not be surprised, since we too had a bang in the beginning!

Father, my love life is effortless. We done the deal. Don't know why, suddenly I see everything perfectly. I now know that he is on me.