Support from close friends

Mar 19 Eve

Yea, I shared my relationship with Z with my close friends. They said I am really courageous to go through it. I know and this is my path. When I shared with them my dilemma on the pills, my close showed an expression of disbelief. I immediately knew its just my drama. Anyway, I have taken the pill. I am doing this not because of Z but its symbolic of me opening up to the cosmic, whatever it may be.

I told them I have lost my sense of superiority complex. Previously I would never share such 'losing' story due to my pride. But now, it doesn't matter anymore. I am willing to lose with Z, so don't have to be afraid to lose with my friends. I was bit suprised, I tot they would judged me but instead they admire my courage and even supported me. Amen.

Father, an insight came on me and Z; to be with him and not be attached to him. A tall order.
Father, u must think greatly of me, to give me this challenge.

To be in this world and yet not of the world.

I have decided to delink the blog from website. Since I can't seem to walk with both, I might as well drop one first. The blog is for my self-expression and for me to reflect on myself whenever I update it. I have obtained good insight on the workings of my brain.

Another insight; no dilemma, no growth. A good story here.

The Passion Test
Action engages attention
It is not the action that achieves the result. Things will almost certainly not turn the way u plan. But by taking action, u keep ur attention engaged with fulfilling ur intention. It is ur attention that creates the outcome.

Soul
I remember. That's why I am taking the pills, to show my ernesty in going through the cosmic lesson.


Osho - Kabir
Jump into life!
Become part of it, throb with it.
And then u will know - although u will never be able to transfer ur knowledge through words to anybody else.
Truth is not transferable. But u will become truth and u will become a light in this dark night of life and u will become a path into this jungle of life.
Many will have insights in ur presence: u will be a catalytic agent, but u will not be able to give ready-made answer.

Soul
Tot of me and my passion to be a Writer.