Facing my Cosmic Reward

Feb 28 Eve
Father, part of me bit not sure. He didn't message me. But he did ask earlier if my schedule is packed and I said yes. So, he was just himself.

Me, I wanted to message him. But I am not sure. Why? Cos I don't want him to think I like him more. I guess I am afraid cos I have been having tots of him. He seems to be in my more recently. And that got me worried. Never mind, happy problem.

Aiyah, he already knows that I like him more. Anyway, was still contemplating. But his messenger now has his pix, which made me curious and I msg him.

Expect a Miracle
It is not ur business to dictate to the Universe how u think things should show up. Your biz is to stay the course. Even if u "get" the lessons, they need to settle in and become integrated.

The organic process of becoming and attracting a great partner needs constant nourishment. And u have to take it one day at a time, being grateful for each moment that u r able to connect in a meaningful way with urself and those around u.

Soul
Yea, I tot I did my lesson. Feeling bit worried if I can do the next one. Guess that's just my worry talking. Since I have gone thru that amazing date, I can do the next one. Besides, I aim to be great.

Expect a Miracle
It is vital that u understand that everything has its time; everything has its place.
Consider that ur future partner may now be unraveling himself from whatever entanglement they are in. Ur partner could very well be on his way, but details unbeknownst to u must be attended to.

And consider ur own soul's timing, its own readiness in being in a relationship. U r ever evolving and ur soul knows when that evolution should include a partner. In the scheme of development, certain things have to take place, such as ur ability to accept something great, so it doesn't shock the system and get rejected.

We can't force readiness, it is something that happens organically without our coercion; we can take the steps to put the process in motion, but we can not dictate the exact sequencing of unfoldment. What might seem like serendipity will be God's wink to the preparation you have done. Be patient; let the fruit ripen, let the seeds grow into flowers, let nature take its course.

(Apr 10 - yea, just be ready with the contraceptive. When my body is ready, it will happen. Meanwhile, I m thankful I have Z that will allow me to play whenever I want to without any expectation!)

Don't have to share with ur friends as they can cast doubt on ur process of transformation because they haven't done the work to know where ur confidence is rooted. Understand that it is not malicious intent but rather their own fear and need for control that keeps them from believing the great potential of the miraculous.

Example
Chloe was a very powerful woman in many ways and I think that her friends felt that the one they had over her - and remember, this is unconscious - was her inability to master relationships.

Soul
I noticed that I am eating vegetable. Not becos I like them but I know its good for my body.

Expect a Miracle
Try to maintain interdependence with whomever comes ur way; independent and self sufficient but engaging in healthy relatedness.

Keep ur own schedule, resisting the temptation to throw yourself wholly into someone else's life. Although it might feel good at first, if u let urself become engulfed, u will eventually feel is u lost something precious.

Keep aware of ur personal priorities and make sure that the new relationship doesn't overwhelm u and supplant ur own concerns.

Invite ur new partner unhurriedly into ur world and ur circle of friends. Don't thrust upon him an entirely new cast of characters to get to know. Gently integrate ur lives.

Keep ur self respect in high regards; it has been hard-earned by all this internal self-searching.

And remember, just because u have grown doesn't mean u won't be presented with old situations that still pull ur string.

(Apr 10 - a good reminder. I am glad I am keeping to mine.)