No past, no future, then there is only peace in the present

Mar 2

I send him 2 msg and he doesn't reply me.
Of cos, I am bit puzzled and the old me would scream abandonment. But the new me, just puzzled. I let God decide. What's meant to be, is to be. For me, is just continue to be happy.
Finished my meditation and had tots of him. Was singing and these dance comes effortlessly.

I don't know what he thinks except he doesn't want to disturb me. For me, I want him. For now, I don't care if I got stuck and become needy. Now I just want to play. And I know its not me growing wild cos I didn't react to E, just Z only.

Father, I can now believe my natal chart on the physical part. I definitely have the potential. Infact I was even thinking of how to raise the height. (Apr 19 - yeap, it is proven. He said I am the best!)

Father, m glad I am finally learning the lesson of heaven and hell. My fear is abandonment. Now first thing is I don't go into it. If I go into it, then I find ways to make the abandoment positive and meant to be. Whatever happens, I choose heaven.

Renewal. When there is no past, when there is no future, only then is there peace. To be present is to be alive.

Soul. Very true. If I go into future, I will not be at peace with myself and Z as I would be worried if we are going anywhere or not. If I go into past, I will be in abandonment issue and will not take a risk on Z. For now, I just know I want him.

That which never dies
Each moment, what r u accumulating - is it going to be taken away by death? If yes, not worth bothering about.
If no, then even life can be sacrificed.
Before life disappears, use the opportunity to find that which never dies.

Soul
To me, dying to the fear of loss, to pride, and etc. Just have courage to be.