Cosmic Lesson (25) - stop and focus on Now

Mar 3 Eve

Father, again the same type of dream. I cannot find my car. This time, even with my sis. I was nearly in tears as there was also a guy who ran to me and put a spell on me saying I would go to him at this bar. I was afraid and I wanted to call Z to come to fetch me as I wanted to go to the meditation session with him. As I tot of that, I tot this is a dream, why don't I dream of another thing. I then woke up.

Suddenly I woke up and recall that whenever I was afraid I stop and cannot move.

Even today, the tot of going on with Z was stopped when I rec his msg and there was no future. I then logically state there is no reason to continue. I told Z. Surprisingly, he is staying put.

Father, when I want to say yes, the no come on. Now, I know I need to say yes.

I realised what's my fear. Fear of future, which is a projection of past. I may not want to marry. But I worried what if I got stuck with him and there is a guy who wants to marry me.

Let me remember my swim. Just focus on the Now. Forget about the destination.

Like D said, this may not be the one rship for me. But is the one I need right now.

I called him but no reply. I just text him that I am not running. Like boss, when I come to my senses, I must tell. I must take note.

Anyway, not to worry. My modus operandi is always to run. It is not to stay.