Transformation did happen (6) - I am blooming, its spring time for me

Mar 7 Eve

The Power of Now
Love, joy and peace cannot flourish until u have freed yourself from mind dominance. They r not emotions. They lie beyond the emotions, on a much deeper level. So u need to become fully conscious of ur emotions and be able to feel them before u can feel that which lies beyond them.
Emotion literally means "disturbance".
Love, joy and peace are deep states of Being or rather three aspects of the state of inner connectedness with Being.

Soul
Exactly.

The Power of Now
Pleasure is always derived outside, whereas joy arises from within.
The very thing that gives u pleasure today will give u pain tomorrow or it will leave u, so its absence will give u pain.
And what is often referred to as romantic love may be pleasurable and exciting for a while, but it is an addictive clinging, an extremely needy condition that can turn into its opposite at the flick of switch. Many "love" rships, after the initial euphoria has passed, actually oscillate between "love" and hate, attraction and attack.

Soul
Tell me about it.

The Power of Now
Real love doesn't make u suffer. All cravings are the mind seeking salvation or fulfillment in external things and in the future as a substitute for the joy of Being. As long as I am my mind, I am those cravings, those needs, wants, attachments, and aversion. Even desire to become enlighten is just another craving.

So, don't seek, just become present. Be the observer of the mind. Be the buddha, be "the awakened one", which is what the word Buddha means.

Pain is inevitable as long as u r identified with ur mind, which is to say as long as u r unconscious, spiritually speaking. Pain and pleasure is inseparable opposite, which will manifest in time.

There are two levels to ur pain;
1. The pain that u create now
2. The pain from the past that still lives on in ur mind and body.
Ceasing to create pain in the present and dissolving past pain - this is what I want to talk about now.

Soul
Pain of the past, I can dissolve using meditation.
Pain of the present, I have to be in the Now.


The Power of Now
The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment, and this in turn depends on how strongly u r identified with ur mind. The mind always seeks to deny the Now and to escape from it.
The more u r able to honour and accept the Now, the more u r free of pain, of suffering and free the egoic mind.

Soul
Can see my abandonment issue come up. Tots come in on Z but I don't want to react on it.

The Power of Now
Say "yes" to life and see how life suddenly starts working for u rather than against u.

Soul
Yes, I don't know what I could be. I don't know what I need for my growth. For now, at least I stop resisting Z. What m doing now is not to project my abandonment to him. He is totally fine no one calls him till the very last day. Besides I did my quota this morning. Now just want to focus on my breath.
Don't take this personally. He is just busy with his studies. He is very focused. Nothing to do with me. Just like he was not in my life, neither am I in his.