Amazing Surya Kriya

May 15
Did my Surya kriya. In the first cycle, I had a tot of something and automatically my feet placement was off. With that I fully focus for next 4 cycle. With Surya kriya, not even a single tot must be in. Otherwise, the body geometries will be out. When I was doing my fourth cycle; lifting my head up for fluttering, suddenly I was crying and wailing. Tears fell to the yoga mat and I cried to Father to help me. I don't recall having any tots.

Had a short Shavasana and continue with breathing session. Shakti was good as I did the correct Kapala Bhakti. Shambavi was amazing. I was singing from butterfly wings to left and right baby rocks. Violet flame surya kriya. Crying during aum chanting. Silence in the end and when I ended with closing invocation; singing came out of nowhere. I just go with the flow. Amen.

Had tots on Z. Pe asked if I m truly over him and whether I can be just friends with him. I say not now; maybe in future. Pe said she is sure Z can do it as most men can easily let go.

I am now updating my blog and saw that many people read the page; To truly love Z is to let him go so he can fulfill his dream.

Glad that L realised she was afraid to face her downs and hence didn't want to do homework. She admitted she doesn't want to see her past.

Father, I was about to face the email comm again. My confidence took a hit when teacher keep on saying I m not polite. Anyway, I told myself to stay positive.  In my heart I know N is a good guy and wouldn't leave us stranded. And Nine of Hearts means good heart. Besides my brother loves me; so N should not be too different. Brace my face and call him and we got things sorted out.